Robron Fanfiction Sunday: Committed

Happy Sunday!

I’ve decided to start doing some fanfiction promotion on Sundays. So, let’s start with one of my own. I know, lame but here we are. So, check out my fanfic below and let me know if you like it or not.

One Death.
One Detective.
One Village.
Too many suspects.

What will Detective Robert Sugden do?

Committed: An Emmerdale Mystery 

(Mood Board by the lovely 

Emmerdale Title Card

The State of Emmerdale and Fandom

I am writing this as a fan. Someone who loves a great story. Great actors. Great flow. I can recognize when something isn’t working. I can call out my favorite shows. Even with some faults (all shows have faults), I believe Emmerdale has been great this year.  Now, everyone is allowed to have an opinion. Everyone can feel how they feel and that’s that.

Here is how I feel. Take it or leave it.

Now I’m breaking this down into sections. What I see the most on social media when it comes to the show, Robron, and Iain MacLeod. Get some coffee and a snack. This is a long look at Emmerdale and fandom (from my point of view).

The Show as A Whole

Emmerdale is finally being written as, “A Day in the Life in a Village.”  Everyone is interacting. No one is really in their story corners anymore.  People are mingling. They are reacting. People are interconnected. That makes it a lot more fun.  The girls going out to the club.  Rhona and Pete are getting closer.  Charity is helping Tracy while facing her own past.  These characters would have never interacted three years ago. If you look back and watch the episodes back, then (three or four years ago) everyone was in their corners. Not really interacting. Now, we have a real village feel.

The cinematography has been great. I’m getting so much ‘unsaid’ moments this year and it makes me understand character motivations a lot better. Less telling and more showing. I know some might disagree or say that I’m reading into things, but let’s look at what happened today.

The two-shot of Liv and Gabby. Rewatch it if you must. The slow push in as the judge spoke. The fact they dressed Liv in all black. Her side had a slight shadow on her. Painting her in a darker light.  Gabby, meanwhile, had more light and her clothes were brighter. That subconsciously told me how this would end. They both were in the same position, their hands folded on the table, but they were in very different places emotionally. Especially in the judge’s eyes.

The scene with Charity after she tells all to Vanessa about her past.  They shoot her sitting on her bed in her bedroom. They shot her from way above. That tells me she feels small. The random dingy stuffed animals might hint at innocence lost. It was telling and gave me more information that dialogue wouldn’t.

I’ve been slightly in awe of how great the crew has been on this show and makes me appreciate all the effort they put in.

One of the biggest complaints I hear about is how Iain keeps using the same plots repeatedly. Yes, the tropes are the same. As in every soap. It’s the characters that change the game.  Just because the plot is the same doesn’t mean things will run the same way.  The characters actions change things. I’d wait to judge a storyline before it airs. You might be pleasantly surprised. Going into a storyline with an open might can do wonders for one’s enjoyment of the show.  I’m someone that would prejudge a story before it aired and I found it ruined the show for me. Keeping an open mind can change a lot. That’s just how I feel right now, and you don’t have to agree. That’s just my opinion.

The show finally gave us a villain that they so desperately needed. I don’t consider Lachlan, a villain. Not the kind I want in a soap. Sometimes all soaps need a villain that is one-dimensional. Someone to shake things up. Screw with some settled characters. Yes, I know Robert and Aaron have just gotten settled, but I’ll speak more about that below in another section. Joe and his arrival with Graham has given us a villain to hate. Someone we can’t possibly feel conflicted about. Sometimes we all need a good villain to root against. Someone for the audience to bond over. Their hatred of this character. I’m glad Joe showed up. Let’s see what they do with him once he is done upsetting the status quo.

The show isn’t perfect, but I am really enjoying it right now.  I have let go of all my anger (I let go, but I don’t forget the anger), and I am enjoying the plot and where it takes me.  Sometimes we all just need to breathe, reboot and wait to see where a story takes us. It is a soap opera. A lot can change on a soap opera.

Robron (and Family)

Since Robron’s reunion, they have been doing what I expected.  They have settled in. They are communicating. They are trying to create their family on a much better foundation.  This time around Robert and Aaron are much different.  They are there for each other.  They listen. They care. They are a family now. A family that would do anything for each other. We weren’t getting that in 2016. That version of Robron wasn’t ready for the house, the family and facing difficulties together. Their foundation was cracked. Looking back in 2017, it hurt. It hurt a lot. However, there were reasons for the hurt. It built Robert up to be better. He went through hell and back and learned something from it. Same with Aaron. Aaron worked on his mental health with a therapist. He went on a vacation. He tried to move on with another type of guy.  Aaron and Robert got to burn to the ground and build back up stronger individuals so when they were ready to join forces, they were even stronger than before. The tools are there, and they are using them.

Sure, there will be setbacks. Aaron will do something stupid. Robert will make the wrong decision, but it’s on for their own self-interest. It’s for their family, and they are protecting each other. That’s what I am here for. These two stronger individuals working together. They are a family now, and I hate to break this to some people, but they are one of the healthier couples on the show. I know. Amazing considering their past. They needed that break to realign. It hurt, and some are still hurting, but it was for the best. Story and character wise. I see it as Iain MacLeod fixing Kate Oates mistakes with them.

I think that is why the show has attached Joe to them. Some can’t see why Joe would go after Robert. I personally do see a connection. Joe is a watered-down wannabe Robert.  He isn’t fully formed yet.  He has money and a bodyguard (that feels owes him) and a company but no heart. No real family. No real love. Since he doesn’t have that he must be better than guys who do have that. Robert is one of those guys. He has it all. He has the husband, the family, the business, and love. So, let’s go after him and destroy that. Bring him down to his level, and then he can rise above. Joe is a villain that thinks he can take on a former villain. Good luck Joe. You are dealing with Robert, Aaron, and The Dingles. He will win battles but never the war.

I know people seem to think because Robron doesn’t kiss as much as Vanity or Laurel/Bob, they aren’t looking at the context. Robron are not in their honeymoon stage. They aren’t in affair mode. They are settled. They are old marrieds who need a nap or two. I personally don’t need them all over each other to know they love each other. Actions speak louder than words. All the times they protect each other and are there for each other say a lot more to me than stolen kisses on a couch in the back of the pub. Would I like to see a kiss or two? Yeah but I know its coming. They have big things on the horizon, and if we all can have some patience and faith, we will be seeing it.

I say, when some of you get caught in the negative feedback loop that is social media, sit back. Read some good fanfiction. Think up how the wedding will go down. Think of how Liv will get out of her sticky situation. Come up with fun Gerry related events. Instead of staying angry over things you can’t change, think of all the good that is coming for the couple in the future.

Rebecca White

Ah. The thorniest of the thorns in fandoms side.  I’ll clarify here and now. I don’t like her. I never will. She can save the whole village, and I will roll my eyes at her.  I think what frustrates me now is what they are doing with her.  I have made my peace with last year. It happened. Nothing can change that. I still hate it, but I refuse to stay in that negative frame of mind anymore. In my eyes, she lost big time.  She wanted her family to burn, she wanted Robert, and she wanted the family money. What did she get? Her family (who she decided she suddenly cared about) died at another family members hand, Robert never loved her and never will, and the family has some money but not the millions she expected.  She lost it all, and that’s a good start to me. Now she has a permanent brain injury. Something the show went out of their way to tell us won’t have an easy way out. She has this for life. She is changed.

That is where I get frustrated. I expected the show to do something with her. Reset her character. Rebuild differently. Something. Right now, she is being used as plot devices for Ross, Lachlan, and Debbie. We are just waiting for the Lachlan storyline to explode at this point. In the meantime, she is playing a comedy routine in the pub.  Which is frustrating because its just…she is dead weight in my eyes.

By the way, Robron have no ties to her. Just Seb and that is thin at best.  For once she is being shown far away from them. Which signals that plot device is over. Some need to remember that and remember it’s not 2017 anymore. That story has passed and as the Twitter account said, “That is not the story we are telling.”

Either have her kill off Lachlan, Lachlan kills her off or something. Something needs to change. Right now she is just there. Staring off into the abyss is dead weight. I can’t wait to see this plot device move on.

Iain Macleod VS Kate Oates

I lied. He might be the thorniest of the thorns in certain parts of fandom.  I don’t hate Iain or Kate. I think both have their positives and negatives. I just like Iain’s Emmerdale more than Kate’s. I wrote this out (after I had a few mind you) but someone asked me on Tumblr to compare the two. So, here it is. There is more I would like to add, but this is getting too long already.

Kate Oates

What Works

Kate Oates is good at dark, dramatic story.  The ones that, if one thing is done wrong, the whole storyline is over. For instance, Bethany’s Grooming storyline was done beautifully. As is the start of David’s rape story.  She knows how to hit the right beats and promote social issues in significant ways, so it grabs the attention of not only the fanbase but the general audience as well.  That is great. On Emmerdale, she did this with Edna and her inability to pay for heat or food. Elderly not being able to afford the cost of living is a real problem in the United States (where I live) but the UK as well. I could argue her Woolpack Siege is part of the dark, dramatic story but didn’t have a social issue involved.  It didn’t have a great buildup, but once Cameron came out with the gun, there was this slow build up to Debbie/Cameron/Chas. She compared that human build up to the building filling with water about to explode. If I remember correctly the building exploded right when the triangle exploded.  It was great television and had a lot of great writing, direction and camera work. This covers the big helicopter crash that had a big build up with multiple characters involved.  Same with the ‘Who Shot Robert?’ storyline that borrowed from a famous Hitchcock movie but it still surprised people.

What Doesn’t Work  

Even though I said she is good at the big dramatic story, she tends to make everything dark. She has trouble with comedy plots. She tries, but it just doesn’t happen. For instance, on Coronation Street, Liz and Eileen hiding out in the toilets to avoid an annoying person were meant to be funny.  Also, Gemma (the resident comedy plot who I adore) was recently attacked by Fitz for sleeping with Tyrone.  Instead of it being dramatic they tried to make it funny, and it just left me hating everyone but Gemma because Fitz has no right to throw stuff and grab Gemma for something she let her boyfriend get away with.  Her idea of light and funny doesn’t exist. During her reign on Emmerdale that happened too. There was an imbalance of comedy to dark.  She had Alicia sexually abused, Adam cheated on Victoria and Ross shot Robert because Andy paid him to do it.  So much fun.

Also, I’m writing this here. She had a ton of cheating during her reign of Emmerdale and currently Corrie. So, the whole argument of Iain only does cheating storylines falls apart instantly since all showrunners use cheating. Even Kate Oates has used a cheating trope the wrong way. Tyrone/Gemma ring a bell? Aiden and Maria? Come on now. She planned to kill off Robert and just make him a one-dimensional character though he was a legacy and Ryan deserved better back then. Thank god fans grew to love him, and he got to stick around long enough to see a different showrunner direct the character.

She also repeats stories. Here is a list of all the stories she is repeating:

1) Kana/Billy and Todd = Robron (Kana is…less than impressive. Billy and Todd’s demise couldn’t be helped)

2) Cameron = Phelan (SIGH)

3) Summer = Liv (Ok…that is less repeating and more trying to compete and complete her new version of Robron. Sorry. I like Summer but Team Liv)

4) Eva/Aiden/Maria = Ross/Debbie/Pete (think about it. Both had terrible people stuck in the middle. One named Debbie and one named Aiden. )

5)Rita (a beloved character) almost dying = Val (actually dying) (I think the fans saved Rita. Those campaigns to keep her around at any cost was intense.)

Those are few I can name off the top of my head.  I remember pointing out more with someone, but I lost track. Either way, she has her favorite tropes, or she tries to recreate, and it falls flat…most of the time.

Iain Macleod

What Works

Iain is good at using a shows history in a creative way.  Sometimes it easy to just barrel forward and leave your mark by creating new families or new characters and let them squeeze themselves into the canvas. Iain has been using the shows history and building on that history.  He did it with Robert and his sexuality and daddy issues.  Which did upset long-term viewers since some long-term viewers view Jack as a bit more innocent than he was actually on screen. He recently showed this strength by bringing a beloved family back, The Tates.  Using that history (that family has a strong history), he can easily bring back fan favorites while developing a future for them in the village.  Joe fits, and because he fits so well, Graham (who he brought with him) fits in as well.

He knows how to mix the village up.  For some reason 2017 had everyone in their corners but around November 2017 and beyond the village starting mixing again.  People who aren’t in the same storylines still hanging out at the pub together or having a conversation in the pub is happening again.  I think Robert being taken out to a club by other characters wouldn’t have happened in 2015 or even 2017, but in 2018 it worked. Everyone was talking and taking advice from each other by that point. The village feels alive again.

He is good at creating new characters.  Jessie, Gerry, and Graham are some original characters that have added so much to the village and still have a long future ahead of them.  I can see all three characters sticking around for a long time.

What Doesn’t

I think he has trouble working with characters that he didn’t create, or he can’t draw some history from.  That is why direction for The White family has been a bit on the crazy side. Not in a good way.  Since The Whites are limited in terms of history, he seems to struggle with what they will be or do next.  Which lead to uneven characterization and general confusion.  Killing off two seemed to cut down on the confusion but who is left is just hanging out till the next plot point. So, that was horribly done.

He is headstrong. If he wants to see something on screen, we are getting it.  He wanted to see Robert with a kid.  We have it (I say it worked out ok for now, but it was rough going getting there).  He wanted to see some couples broken up and mixed up, so we got Pete and Priya (hot summer romance…not.).  He doesn’t look at the bigger picture or long-term effects of storylines.  There is quite a bit of 2017 that is full of experiments that just failed miserably.

He loves his favorite plot devices. He loves babies (everyone got a baby last year…and Chas this year.), and he falls back on cheating even when it doesn’t make sense (Laurel/Bob and Priya/Pete) and many more that is abused quite a bit on the show. To the point when we were tired watching.

To tell you the truth, one thing they both are good at is getting viewers to watch, comment and freak out over the show. Both shows are consistently neck and neck in the ratings and have created their own little corner of the soap world that is getting both Corrie and Emmerdale noticed internationally.  Both have many faults, but they have done a lot of good as well.  They understand social issues, and how to relate those issues to their audience. One would argue both have gotten attention from a younger viewer base than former showrunners.  However, right now…I like where both are for the time being. I think Kate Oates needs to stay at Corrie and people need to recognize that 2018 has been better than 2017 for Iain MacLeod.  He is learning, slowly, from his mistakes of 2017.  So, let’s keep everyone in place for the time being. For my sanity.

In Conclusion

I think it’s easy to stay negative.  It is easy to hate everything before it can hurt you. I get it. 2017 Emmerdale was rough. It hurt. I was bitter. Angry. I have all my reviews and theories to prove that. However, now that I can see the faults and the good, I am willing to let go of the past and move forward. Doesn’t mean I won’t be unhappy with the show but I don’t think it’s the worst show in history or constantly disappointing me. I’m willing to go for the ride and try not to judge too soon.  I think Robron has a lot of good coming. A lot of hard times but they are stronger and won’t make the same mistakes again.  I think the characters being mixed about is great. I think there is a lot that will develop with Joe that will make us happy.

Its ok if you are negative or upset. I just hope you don’t stay there for long. See the humor in situations and try to see the good instead of only seeing bad. Don’t take this as me telling some to lighten up or anything. This is just my opinion and how I approach the shows most talked about topics. I hope you see the good soon and I’ll see you around Emmerdale.

Saturday Positivity : 2016 Robron vs 2018 Robron

Positivity and hope are difficult to maintain these days.  With all the bad news in the world and people wanting to think the worst its easy to fall into that negative feedback loop.  So, once again, on a Saturday I am here to make another positive Robron (always lower case. We do not want to kill any angels by writing the ship name wrong) post.

Oh, thank you! You all can stop clapping now. Sit down. It is going to be a fun, positive post this Saturday. I will be comparing how Robron’s relationship has changed from 2016 to 2018 through their reunions. (there was no 2017 what are you talking about 2017 never happening…don’t make me wink).

Get some tea or coffee. Put up your feet and enjoy some time away from the madness. Let’s crack on!

The Difference Between 2016 and 2018 Robron


After the reunion in 2016, the two found themselves in a delicate place.  Aaron was coming off a very challenging trail against Gordon and Robert was trying to change for the better. He wanted to change for the better. With that came many insecurities from both sides. For Aaron, his head was still very much clouded with self-doubt about his childhood and past. He does not want to seem weak to people, especially Robert, so he kept a lot in. He also had a ton of preconceptions from the past in his head. Robert was trying to be a better version of himself for Aaron without really knowing what to do. He just took care of things the way he always did, and that was in silence. They never talked about what was going on within their heads or what they wanted to do to handle certain situations. That is how we got Aaron beating up someone and landing in jail. How we got Robert locking people in a boot (a staple of 2016 if you ask me) and Aaron getting mad about it.

In 2018, since Robert and Aaron have reunited again, we do not have those insecurities.  Aaron and Robert are talking to each other about what is happening. Robert texting Robert about a new Rebecca drama instead of hiding it from him. Being open about what is going on with Jimmy and Joe. Whenever Robert and Aaron enter a situation both know what is happening because they talk about it with each other. I am sure with the Liv story coming up Robert will be in the know there too. A major upgrade from 2016.

Facing the Good and Bad Together

In 2016, after their reunion, there is a lot of Robron going off to face events on their own. Every so often they would face something together, but it was rare. Aaron was handling all of Liv’s drama on his own. Robert was hiding his own revenge plans, so he did not upset Aaron. There was a lot of facing up to things alone that caused them to splinter after their reunion.

In 2018, it was said, point blank, they would be facing everything together. Which, they have been. Since they got back together. Robert and Aaron faced off against Joe together. Aaron came with Robert to handle Rebecca nonsense and even is spending time with Seb. Which, just saying here, was adorable. Aaron getting Seb to smile and wiggle again was awesome and adorable, and my ovaries might have….no one wants to hear about my ovaries. This shows that they are willing to face the good and the bad together. Hand in hand. Eyes fully open to the situations they are in.  That makes them even stronger than their 2016 selves.

The Difference in Reunions

Let’s talk about the two reunions. The two big reunions of 2016 and 2018 (again).  In 2016, the reunion had build up all through the drama of Gordon story.  From Aaron telling Robert what happened, to finding Liv and Sandra and then the trial. There was a lot of build up for one scene.  A scene where Aaron does not look comfortable. Robert is trying to say all the right things. Don’t get me wrong; it’s a good scene. Sweet. Short. However, there is a lot missing which makes sense in hindsight. They don’t pinpoint exactly what went wrong before. They don’t talk about how to talk it easy. They just focus on what Robert can do for Aaron. One-sided. Yeah, they are back together but they weren’t together. They were going through the motions and developing into something that seemed strong but really, they were full of insecurities and cracks.

In 2018, the reunion was much different. There wasn’t a build up per say. It was built off of that small foundation of their chemistry and connection.  We could argue that Robert and Aarons connection never went away or was severed.  It was always there, humming along in the background.  Like the Pacey Witter quote, “It is sort of always there… like… white noise, or… the secret service or the threat of nuclear war, for that matter. Just somethin’ you get used to.” Their chemistry and connection were always there.

This time, Aaron and Robert have two scenes of reunion.  They cover everything that went wrong, what they could do differently this time and Robert finally talks about his fears of what happened and what Aaron would need to accept to make this relationship work again. Robert pulls away, but for once Aaron runs after him. That is the second scene. Aaron tells Robert everything wrong with him but also talks about his good qualities and how they can make it work this time around. Giving him a directive or choice really.

“Please just come home with me!”

The difference between the two reunions. It was not so one-sided in 2018.  There was talk of what both did that was wrong and how they can move forward. Robert was given a chance to talk about his fears and Aaron was able to tell Robert what he see’s in him, even when he is mad or hurt. There was a better foundation being built over burning down of their own selves. Robert was burnt to the ground, and he has been building himself back up ever since. Aaron let him try and move on to see what else is out there and found he could not move on. Not when he knows where he should be. These two did the work this time and knew what they were jumping into. In 2016, it was a leap without plans or any type of conversation past, ‘don’t let me down’ threats. It did not work out that time for that reason. This reunion gave them a much better standing.

So, What Did We Learn Today?

What we learned is 2018 Robron, while they still have their problems, are on a much better starting out point than 2016 Robron. As I have said to many on Tumblr (Thank you guys for listening to me babble) what Robert and Aaron are now is a team.  A team that is going forward with their eyes fully open to what has happened in the past and what can happen in the future. They will live in the present and be there for each other. Learn along the way, but they will be doing it together. I do not know guys, that sounds really romantic to me. Love, family, kisses, and teamwork. Much better now than in 2016.

Well, that was my Saturday dose of positivity! I hope I helped make a few fans feel a bit better or even think about how differently positioned the writers have made Robron this time around. It will be one hell of a journey, but it will be full of soapy goodness.  If you have not checked out my other Saturday positive post from last week, you can click here to read it. Until the next time, I will see you around Emmerdale!

Robert and Aaron Reunion 2018

Robron Reunion

Saturday Positivity: Robron Reunion 2.0 Talk

I am here with some positivity. Some Robron Reunion positivity. After yesterdays war zone that made me walk away for a few hours, I have decided to come back with some positivity. Something to fight the negativity out there.  Now, everyone has been giving their opinions on the reunion, so I decided to jump on in and explain why that reunion episode was exactly what the doctor ordered. Sadly, this reunion was not ordered by Doctor Alex Mason. Did I say sadly? None was sad for Dr. Alex.

Anyway, after my millionth rewatch of the reunion episode, here are three reasons why I loved the reunion and a few extras that made the episode extra special. I’m sure this has been talked about, but you haven’t heard my reasons so sit back with your favorite Snickers and coffee and enjoy the ride.

Aaron’s Speech

hug robron

That speech at the end of the episode was everything. Not only did it answer questions many of the general audience, fandom and some antis had, but it also showed how far Aaron had come as a character from the July breakup.  It also showed how this reunion (reunion 2.0) was a lot more stable than the first reunion (reunion 1.0) back in 2016.

Aaron doesn’t pull punches. He knows Robert’s shortcomings. He listed them off the bat. He isn’t blinded by the idea that Robert is perfect in any way which is good. Very good. That shows they are past that initial stage of puppy love/blinding love. They are very much comfortable with themselves and know all the negatives.

The next part of the speech is listing all the good Robert has done. For the past year, we have been hit over the head with Robert imploding. That came with the darker meaner side of Robert that only seemed to show all the bad Robert can and did do.  Aaron was there to remind us of all the good Robert has done. He loved Aaron, saved him, believed him, loved Liv and did everything possible to love Aaron even when he was difficult. This is important for Aaron to say (in my eyes) because it proves what I’ve been thinking all along about Robert and Aaron’s love story. Robert and Aaron are just big messes. They aren’t great at coping or picking the right choices at the moment. However, they know this about each other and still see the good in each other. Which is a powerful type of love. It’s saying, ‘Yes, you are a screw-up but I know you will always try to not be a screw-up and I see that. I see the good and the bad, and I love you.  During reunion 1.0, Aaron was still putting stipulations on Robert and not trusting him and thinking the worst. Reunion 2.0 has Aaron knowing that bad side but believing and supporting the good. Even if Robert screws up he will be there. He won’t let go so easily. He will be there for him this time.

Yes, it was very romantic, but of course, there was that classic Aaron spin, the lines, “Shut up and listen for once” and “You can talk now!” at the beginning, and the end is what made that passionate speech to Robert uniquely Aaron Dingle. I loved every moment of it and how much stronger Aaron is and how much stronger Robron are as a pair.

The Garage False Start

Robron hands

This false start, in hindsight, was perfect. That is the place they got married. That was the place they shared that intensely sweet moment before everything went to hell.  It was the perfect place to start off the reunion.  It gave us Aaron’s point of view on how he really handled their wedding anniversary, how he feels about Seb (Thank god) and how he felt he could go forward with Robert. Yes, it doesn’t work out, but it wasn’t meant to work out in the garage. More on that in a second.

The moment I love and continue to love is when Aaron takes Roberts hand and the long focus on there joined hands and Aarons hope as he examines their intertwined hands. I love this moment because of what came before. In the past we saw Robert and Aaron grab hands and the camera focused on these moments. One thing I noticed is how their fingers never intertwined. They were cupped together (James’s Funeral in SSW 2016), they were awkwardly grabbed before Aaron walked into his ‘Welcome Home’ party after he got out of jail and then the way their hands barely held on after the big ‘Reveal Blowup’ episode. All of these moments had them struggling to fully contact.  They weren’t fully grabbing onto each other. They were connecting but it wasn’t all the way. It was half efforts. Sort of like that first run from Reunion 1.0 to the bitter breakup. This time? They were fully connected, fingers intertwined. Palm to palm. Fingers wrapped together. Aaron looking at peace. It was like the show was saying, ‘They are finally connecting the way they should have the first time around’ Which makes me think they are in a much better place after reunion 2.0.

Robert finally got to say what he wanted to. How he felt during the breakup. We did get a ton of his point of view, but it was about what he did. We never got his feelings. At this moment, everything was out on the table and Robert said what I think a lot of us were thinking. Robert lost it all, and he burned for it. Did a lot of bad things and now he is just trying to survive and learn about this new version of himself. He doesn’t know if he could handle losing Aaron again with this new mindset he has adopted.

Victoria and Aaron’s Pub Chat


This is a small moment, but I love how this small chat springs big results.  Not only does someone that has a strong relationship with both Robert and Aaron finally give her opinion on what is going on, but Victoria is the one to give Aaron a push in the right direction.

Aaron is finding any excuse as to why Robert would go out to the new gay bar and want to pick up a bloke. First, he hates gay bars. Then, why isn’t he taking care of his kid? Aaron is full of excuses for Robert because he secretly doesn’t want Robert to be doing what Victoria is implying but also, Aaron liked having Robert be there in the background. A possible choice for when he felt ready to make the leap. Robert left the picture and Aaron didn’t like it.

I saw Victoria as the Robron/General Audience questioning Aaron and trying to get answers out of him. What does Aaron want? Does he want Alex, or does he want Robert? This conversation with a trusted source was a good push in the right direction. I also love seeing sassy Victoria (welcome back) and Aaron fumbling around trying to hide in the dark when all he sees is the light.

Some Extras

Roberts Girl Squad

girl squad

This was everything.  It had characters that generally never mix hanging out together and meshing well together.  Everyone played off of each other well and created some funny and sweet moments.  Some of the best moments from our girl group?

  • Priya taking out the DJ for taking her money but not playing her requests. Extra points for Kerry being the mom and trying to pull Priya off of him.
  • Vanessa and Bernice trying to get Robert to have fun and get his mojo back.
  • The Never Have I Ever Game that had everyone joking around about their favorite times around the village. Even better, we have confirmation of Robron fun times in the portacabin.
  • Everyone’s dance moves. We all think we dance like Priya (sexy and moving our butts to the beat), but we are all Robert. All limbs and awkward head bobbing. I loved every second of it.
  • Bernice thinking Priya gave the DJ a hand job to play their 90s Europop songs was funny in a nudge nudge wink
  • I own all those songs they played. I’m not afraid to admit it. I love my 90s club hits. Brings me back to my childhood and makes me miss the old days.
  • The look Vanessa gives Aaron after they successfully get Robert onto the dance floor. Almost like she was checking to make sure they have enough distance between Robert and Aaron. She was being a good friend, and I love her for it.

Vanity Reloaded

vanity kiss

I wasn’t sold on Vanity. I didn’t like how Charity was treating Vanessa who was new to this world of bisexuality.  Charity seemed to enjoy putting Vanessa down while sleeping with her.  This episode sold me on Vanity after Vanessa put Charity in her place and they finally had that talk I was waiting for. They aren’t just a fling and Charity needed to be nicer.  I think they finally gave them a foundation to work off for future storylines.  I needed that, and I’m glad Maxine gave us the foundation. Now, we need to actually see them, but I sense we are about to see a lot of them with Charity’s upcoming storyline.

Aarons Stalker Club – Inquire Within

aaron stalker moment lol

At any given moment Aaron was in the background watching Robert drink, awkwardly flirt, get Mike the Hikers number, dance and run out of the club.  Those little stalking moments were just adorable (the only time I will call stalking adorable ever on this blog) and were fun to find after the initial airing. My favorite moment I didn’t pick up on during the original airing? When everyone was trying to get Robert onto the dance floor, Aaron’s head was visible in the background watching Robert as he was pulled away.  I also spit out my coffee when I noticed. Aaron was just a beautiful mess during the club scenes and I loved every second of it.

This is what I need people to remember when that old negative feeling comes back, or someone manages to stroke the flames of anger and jealousy.  Robert and Aaron are in a much different place than during and after reunion 1.0.  That episode set up a great foundation of strength that would take a lot to break down this time around.  These two have been burned down and rebuilt to be more open, loving and aware than ever before. That makes them a strong couple and no matter what comes at them they can handle it right now. With everything going on it is important to remember that and enjoy watching them be on screen, together. If you ever feel down or angry, remember what was said during the reunion 2.0 and take comfort that they won’t fall into those old traps this time around. Queen Maxine made sure of that this time.

So, how many times did you watch the reunion? Tell me your favorite parts down below and remember to not let the negativity get you down for long.  A lot is coming and it is going to be great. Why? Our favorite couple is going to weather the storm, together. Until next time, see you around Emmerdale.

Out of the Woods?



Hello. How is everyone doing today? I fully intended to write up a Devils Advocate about the new spoilers and have some fun, but I wanted to expand on my thoughts that I brought up yesterday in my Live But Organized Review (3/1/2018).  It is less about the show itself and more about fandom and where we all stand now. I know. This is exciting. So exciting. Sarcasm aside I think it’s important to realize one thing when it comes to Emmerdale and the fandom.

You’re out of the woods. You’re out of the dark. You’re out of the night. Step into the sun, step into the light.

In the Dark

This past year has been hard for us Robert, Aaron, and Robron fans. Everything that our favorite characters and pairing were worried about happened and to extremes.  Then the fallout brought a lot of hand-wringing and upsetting thoughts. Things were dark. Whenever we thought we saw some light something would happen to pull us back in.  Some stuck around and just pushed through with dark sarcasm and copious amounts of fluffy fanfiction. Some tried to analyze each scene and create theories to take their minds off of the darkness and think of some lighter fare.  Some complained about everything to feel better. Then some just left. In case you are wondering, I did all those things except leave. I threatened to others in private conversations and once on Twitter after a really crappy spoiler explosion that ruined three whole episodes in advance.  However, I always stuck around to write my thoughts, no matter how angry I got at fandom and the show.

During that time spoilers were being leaked left and right. A lot of personal speculation was showing up and making people think it was fact. There were actual confirmed spoilers that caused total dread to the fandom.  The build-up to seeing these spoilers caused people to just go into as I call it, Total Negative Mode or TNM. Don’t get me wrong. I lived in TNM land. Anytime someone would tweet or message me I felt my stomach clench. Almost like, ‘what happened now?’ type of feeling. Then I’d read the spoiler and try and be positive about it and even try to write a few theories or ideas up to make it seem better. I was usually punched hard and left with my tail between my legs only to do it again next week.

Into the Light

It wasn’t fun. Most of 2017 for Aaron, Robert and Robron fans wasn’t a good time. However, in the early part of 2018, something seemed to be changing. The spoilers didn’t feel dark anymore. Tweets and articles weren’t avoiding the idea of a better future for the characters.  Something was changing, and that change led us to some very exciting two weeks. We all know what I’m talking about. It was a great two weeks. Valentines Day. Seb watching. Clubbing. Awkward dancing. Revelations. Big speeches.  Kisses and a hopeful future.  It was a good time my friends.

Let me repeat that out of fangirl speak. We not only got Aaron taking control and putting his feelings first, but we got Robert trying to officially move on with the help of friends during a night out. We got the two of them talking through a lot of issues fans had been discussing at great lengths. We finally got a good idea of how Aaron is feeling about these issues. We got a lot of great content and even better? We got a funny, sweet and romantic reunion that continued into the next episode with the rings going back where they belong. Thank god. We had Robert talk to Liv and work out some of their issues. We had the Dingles being ok with this new development (some think it was too easy and yes, I agree, but if the show didn’t have all the plot set up for them, I bet the Dingles would have been a bigger problem).  There was a lot of development and happiness. We had reached the light. The end of the hell plot tunnel. We are back to Robert and Aaron being married and living together, but they are stronger than ever.

So. The hell plot is over. Now what? Well, we move onto new stories. New plots. New connections. Exciting new possibilities. So, the spoilers start back up again like they do every week. We get our spoilers thrown at us like meat to the wolves. We gobble it all up and try to decide how to feel afterwards. Myself? I was full and happy about what could be coming.  Everyone is in a good place, and it would take a lot to take them down too far. However, after looking around? People were in misery. Some upset at the idea of Robert and Aaron not getting their honeymoon period. Some upset about the drama coming back so soon. Some even upset over ideas that haven’t even been confirmed or been realized on screen.

Now What?

What is going on? Our characters are here. They are happy. They have each other. Why are some stuck in TNM land?  Why are they miserable again? That is what I was thinking about as I quickly looked through my dash and twitter page.

This is what this whole piece has been about. What I’ve been leading to this whole time. It’s time to leave TNM and become more positive about what could be coming. I know. Easier said than done. We have, for so long, been thinking the worst of the plot.  That is how we survived watching our favorite characters. We went negative and stayed there. It’s time to break that habit.

The show told us (along with very specific interviews from Danny Miller and Ryan Hawley) that the hardships for their relationship are being put to rest. The internal fighting is calming down. They are very much in love and very much sticking with each other. It’s the external now. It’s the world versus Robert and Aaron. Team Robron vs. the world. We have a lot to be excited about. What sinister person from Aarons past is coming? Who will win the next round of Joe vs. Robert? When will we see the family taking Seb for a walk around the village? (Ok, that one is more for me, but a girl can dream.).

It’s time to think positive. It’s time to create fun theories. It’s time to let go of the past and try to move forward. I believe in not giving energy to people or situations that don’t deserve it. Same goes for fictional characters and plots as well. Time to move on and think of the good going on in the show and the possible good in the future.


You’re out of the woods. You’re out of the dark. You’re out of the night. Step into the sun, step into the light.


Originally posted by startlivingconsciously

I know it won’t happen overnight and might take some of the new plots to take hold before people start thinking of some good. What do you think? Do you think its time to think positive or do you enjoy staying in ‘TNM’ land?  Tell me below, send me a message on my Tumblr (@AmanaJ718) or yell at me using your mind. Ok, scratch that last part but please jump on into the conversation. Until next time, see you around Emmerdale!

What’s Up With Chas Dingle?

After last nights episode, I’ve been thinking long and hard about one character.

Chas Dingle.

Surprise. This isn’t about Robron, but they play a part in this little think piece of sorts.

Something is wrong with Chas. Seriously. Something is seriously wrong. She came back a different person. A different character than we have known her to be. At least to me. Sure, she has always been a bit brashy, bitchy and smart-mouthed but it was usually from a place of love or self-preservation.

Since her introduction back to the show, jumping Paddy like he is Gymboree and she is a toddler on a sugar binge, something has been off about her. WAY off.

What I Noticed About Chas

1)Attaching herself back to Paddy

I know Paddy and Chas have their fanbase and I don’t want to take this away from them.  To me, though, Chas jumping on Paddy and declaring them together felt out of place and weird. Paddy being Paddy went with it, and now they are so in love when they were struggling hard before Chas left. She even told Paddy there is no way they could be “Robert and Aaron” aka Love Crazy Insane Soulmates. She was pulling away hard and then she comes back and declares him her person? No. Something is wrong here. Paddy even questioned this just to be screwed enough for him to forget.

2)Telling others to give up (giving up herself) 

I will never forget Chas telling Cain that, “There are thousands of Moira’s out there!” while he was trying to find ways to keep her in Emmerdale and with him.   That was very out of character for her.  Yes, in the past she told Cain to back off Moira or give her room but never give up on her. It was odd coming out of her mouth and felt passive aggressive.

This relates to Robert and Aaron. Sure, she is upset and will back Aaron. That is a no-brainer. However, like Liv, she was pushing Alex hard onto Aaron. Really hard. Going so hard she was asking if Aaron was in love two dates in (no Chas…he isn’t) and then calling herself Alex’s mother in law in the Valentines Day episode and it was just weird. Chas never acted like that before. Even stranger didn’t seem to give a damn that Robert was hurt at Christmas or that her son was distraught. She went to the hospital, but she went for Aaron and seemed to just bounce right back into the Christmas spirit. Not noticing her sons distress and pushing Alex hard at him. It was cold and didn’t seem to fit her personality before she left for Ireland.

She didn’t even want to fight for Paddy. She figured out something was going on between Paddy and Rhona. She calmly gave him a choice (one she said she would respect) and moved on. No spark. No fight. Nothing. Just, something she left up to someone else. She didn’t make her case for Paddy to be with her. There was no fight there. Like, if Paddy picked Rhona I feel like she wouldn’t have been so upset.

3)Breezing Through Life (Not fighting for something better)

She is just there. The only time I saw her have an emotion other than light, airy love was when Joe Tate played everyone. Otherwise, she is just there. Like on drugs or on a cloud. She is just there to pour drinks, moon over Paddy or talk to Cain about how much she loves Alex. Chas was feisty. She works behind the bar and listens to everyone’s problems and joys. I was expecting her to show up at Wishing Well to protest. I expected her to have a go at Robert. I expected her to be angrier about that loan Charity took out on the pub. Which, I am not sure if that was even resolved yet in the show. Debbie and her business were dropped like a hot potato when Tate came to town. Either way, Chas is just there. A stone figurine in her own life.

4) Extreme Helicopter Mom Status

Chas has always been a terrible mother. She has been making up for that for a long time now. It was part of the Aaron and Chas relationship charm. Watching the two of them find a relationship after years of never being close. However, this year, she is showing up on Valentines Day to bug Aaron with champagne, springing lunches on him, and generally having an opinion on the tiniest details of Aarons life. It’s getting odd and makes Aaron look…sad. A parent can influence their children’s choices.  It’s not unheard of. However, Aaron seems afraid to upset her in any way and lets her run the show.  She has stronger opinions than ever about Aaron and his life, and he doesn’t challenge her on those opinions. It’s getting strange and needs an explanation quick.


With that said, I feel like the speculation about her storyline could explain all the above. So, here is what I think could be causing all these weird changes. Mind you, none of this has been confirmed. Just speculation.  This is what I got:

1) The Irish Fling

The Irish fling left a more significant impression than we know. There is a rumor he is on his way to Emmerdale to shake things up. A guy with tattoos maybe? Chas ran like hell from Ireland and right into Paddy’s arms. Like in the past, she is running from something scary and going to something safe, like Paddy. It’s not the first time she has done that. Something happened with that guy, and it will be a big part of Chas and her storyline going forward. This includes the pregnancy speculation going around about her. This can be attached to the Irish fling and Paddy.

2)She is sick

That is speculation going around that she is sick that is why she is so passive and trying to hold onto only the good things and not the bad. It explains why she wants Aaron to be settled so badly. She wants everyone in their places before she goes. She runs to Paddy because that is an old friend and love. Comforting. Her family is comforting. She is hanging a lot with Cain out of nowhere too. However, I doubt Chas could hide a sickness for long. Not this long at least.

3) She is in a holding pattern

It could mean nothing. She is just in a holding pattern till something bigger comes along. She is being used to push Alex until the show is ready for Robron. She could be a placeholder for Paddy while he figures out feelings about Rhona. She could be so quiet behind that bar because they don’t need her reaction to everything right now. She could be in a holding pattern and burst out of that the minute Robron get back together, or she is given some type of shakeup on her birthday.

Either way, Chas Dingle has been bugging me since she came back from Ireland. Something seems off. The Chas I know was feisty and ready to fight the world.  Now? She seems content to just fall into old patterns and not want something else. Something better. Something is off, and I hope we figure out what is going on with her very soon. I hear she has a birthday and something might kick off there. I pray something does before I write this character off to ‘Do Not Like’ territory.

What do you think? Do you believe Chas has been acting weird lately or do you think she is just her old regular self? Leave me a comment below. I am very interested in what others have to say about her and her direction on the show. Until next time, see you all around Emmerdale!

Playing Devils Advocate: Four Times the Devil!

Here we are. Another year. Another drama. So, here I am again to play a little game I like to call:

Devils Advocate: Four Times the Devil!

I am not going to do a huge lead in so let’s begin. I have listed the last three Devil Advocates pieces at the end for your reading pleasure. You can see how wrong I was about a lot in those pieces. It is a fun read.  It also proves this is just my thoughts and my opinions. Nothing is set in stone.

I am going to cover some heavy-handed speculation that has been discussed more than anything else. So let’s crack on!

Speculation #1 – Rebecca is Staying because….

With one tweet everyone is now in a tailspin.  Ms. Head is still filming. So, here is the speculation. Rebecca comes out of the coma and has

  • Full blown amnesia
  • Brain damage
  • Wakes up with short-term memory loss that comes back
  • Wakes up healthy

Why This Could Be Happening

Since the voicemail was deleted, we now have Rebecca to remember what happened in that car. So, they spread out the story to show Lachlan’s slow demise into madness. The show has shown that he is feeling guilty for his actions and now that Rebecca could wake up and remember? He now must figure out if he has it in him to kill again.

Here comes the breakdown:

  • Full Blown Amnesia: It still makes Lachlan nervous, but he knows he does not know anything. This gives the show a breathing period for Lachlan and gives Rebecca a blank slate. That could be a way to reinvent the character and set her up in a different way. Rework her personality (or pick one) and reinvest into fixing her. Lachlan’s secret comes out another way.
  • Brain Damage: Rebecca wakes up but can’t talk. She slowly remembers as she tries to get better. Lachlan slips into madness wondering if she remembers and will she find a way to tell. Finds ways to keep her in a quiet state.
  • Wakes Up with Short-Term Memory Loss: A version of the amnesia plot but she does not remember, and Lachlan can start to fill her head with other ideas until the memory comes back and Lachlan has to act.
  • Wakes Up Healthy: Wakes up remembering everything but she debates if she should rat her nephew out or play along. Causing him to lose it anyway. He kills her in madness, or she confesses she remembers, in the end, setting off another chain of events.

Why This Isn’t Happening

Even as Rebecca lays in that bed? Its all about Lachlan. How Lachlan is reacting. How Lachlan is debating her fate. How Lachlan will get away with his dirty little secret of trying to kill his family.  No matter what happens, it will not be about Rebecca. Yes, she wakes up, but it will be about Lachlan and what he does next.

Like much of this storyline, she will play a part, but she is not the star. She is the plot device we all know and agree is breathing and on screen.

Its all about investment in the character when it comes to Rebecca. What is the level of investment the show is willing to put in? So far, going off what they have done with her till now, there isn’t much investment there. They sold her car and put her clothes into the rotation of the other ladies on the show. They still haven’t put her picture up on the cast list. Her makeup is limited at best (she wears quite a bit of makeup on the show too). She is going to be staying longer than we expected but for her to stay, there would have to be a level of investment I have not seen yet. Time will tell.

Do you know what I want to see? People to stop acting like they know what is going to happen when they do not. How can you be disappointed in something that hasn’t happened yet?  Seriously. Let the story play out and stop thinking the worst. Iain is not lying to you. He is not even thinking of the whole fandom. He is thinking how I can shock the general audience with some twists and turns. How can he sell a story to the general audience?  If Danny being happy isn’t telling people anything then they are a lost cause.

Speculation #2 – Seb is Staying/Leaving  

I feel this is self-explanatory. However, this does not require a ‘Why it Won’t Happen’ section. I am going to outline how it works both ways within the story.

Why This Will Happen


If Rebecca wakes up with bad enough brain damage, she cannot take care of Seb. She will be carted off, and Robert continues being a single dad. Everyone finding their way to a happy middle and a family is born. It won’t happen overnight and it will be bumpy times but it can happen.


Rebecca does recover, and Lachlan is jailed or killed. Rebecca has no connections to the village, so she continues onto Australia. Robert knows he cannot keep his son from his mother, but they decide that Robert will visit and Seb can visit him when he gets older. Creating a brand-new teenager storyline WAY down the line. Sometimes Aaron joins him.

It is not the first time we saw this on a soap, and it will not be the last. Over time Aaron will grow closer to Seb because he makes the choice. He is not going to punish a child for his parent’s sins. He is not programmed that way. If you think he would? You do not know Aaron Dingle.

Speculation #3 – Robert and Rebecca are the Ones in Love  


I love to put a funny one in there. I respect people’s feelings on many aspects of the show. Everyone can feel how they feel. Except, when it comes to this. In no way shape or form has the show showed Robert or Rebecca being in love or falling in love this past year. That is not going to happen in 2018 either. Stop flooding mailboxes with this false worry. It is not going to happen. It is not in the cards. The show had a full year to have that happen. Do you think with Danny “Robron Captain” Miller going around talking about a lot changing in February with a smile is him lying? If you feel that way, more power to you but there is no proof anywhere that this is going to happen. Robert and Rebecca have no romantic interest, and the show has not shown that either. So, there’s that.

Final Thoughts?

I am going to address some tiny speculation floating around. I’m going to be very truthful. No holding back to save feelings here. Here we go.

Aaron’s point of view is coming. Why is it so late, some of you are saying? So far, this has not been Aarons story. He does not get a point of view because he took the ring off and walked away. He is out of Roberts life so he will not be there for everything. Cherry picking moments that are biased doesn’t prove anything about Aarons feelings. As Danny said in many interviews, lots of Aarons feelings are coming to light in the next couple of weeks. A week in a soap is a very long time. Lots of information can come out in one week. Before you decide how Aaron feels, you should wait for the character to tell you first.

Robert is not boring or had a personality transplant. Not even. He has been through a lot this past year. He has learned a lot about himself. The power he has to do bad things and also good things. He is learning how to be better while still making mistakes. He is trying to be better for himself and his son. That is a good thing and to act like Robert is terrible or boring for that? People are not paying attention to the bigger picture. Robert is growing as a character. That is a good thing. He will still be snarky and want to protect his family and friends but he won’t go to those crazy levels again. He has learned.

Everything comes to an end. Like this storyline. Some need to stop acting like they know what is coming (they do not) and enjoy the ride.  Robron are finding their way back to each other. It will not be simple or easy, and they will be working on issues long after the big kiss. It is a continuing story. They will work on it. It will be a lot of growing together now.  Lachlan is finally being able to shine and be the dominant member of the family while possibly falling into madness. It will not be a clean-cut ending, but it will be a soap ending and thank god for that.

Tell me what you think below or leave me a message on my Tumblr! I will not be taking questions or opinions on Twitter since I am on a self-imposed mental health break. I will not see it, and I will not respond. So, until the next speculation post or Live and Organized, see you around in Emmerdale.

Devil’s Advocate – The Two Main Theories

Devils Advocate: Part Two (More Devil. Less Advocate.)

Emmerdale: Playing Devil’s Advocate (Once. Twice. Three Times the Devil!)


A Very Robert Christmas – A Live and Organized Special Edition

I wasn’t going to do this. I swear. I planned to watch, freak out and reblog all the gifs while crying. I plan to still do that, but I have so much to say about a lot of things. This episode felt like a palette cleanser. Almost, like, we were spun into a new direction. I’m going to go person by person. Family too (Ok, I have a lot to say about the Dingles) and then of course…my hearts…Robert Sugden. Aaron Dingle. Robron. (Also, this episode just gave me a great idea for my fanfiction since…it kind of came true today).  This is full of spelling mistakes. My hands were shaking with excitement so excuse the poor execution please.

Let’s begin with the easy stuff.

(Get a snack. Its long and full of errors.)

General Overview of the Episode

Ryan is amazing. No holds barred here. Ryan Hawley is an amazing actor. The show knows this too or else he wouldn’t have given him his own episode to carry. Before anyone argues, he carries this whole episode. Everyone else (even Danny) is his supporting cast. He is amazing. So was Danny (crying…he always gets me to cry. Without fail!).

This was well written, well paced and VAL. I loved that Val was the surprise guest. I was so sure it was Katie and so was most of the GA and Robron fans. SURPRISE. I love Val so it was nice to see her.

“You got a lot gayer after I died.” – *SNORT*

The Dingles

*DEEP BREATH* They were just…terrible this year. While I would love to sit here and bad mouth Charity and Paddy about wishing Robert dead (What the frack?!?!) but I would expect that from Charity and Paddy. They are just…mean these days. Not even funny. That might be something else the show is setting up.  Same with Chas. She knew/knows how Aarons feels but she wants her son to move on so she pushes. I get that. Doesn’t mean I like it. Also, bad karma my friends. WISHING PEOPLE DEAD. Just saying.

I want to talk about the Christmas Day celebration. The Dingles and Christmas should feel warm and welcoming. Tight like last year. Everyone was close to each other. The colors felt warm and welcoming. It felt like a family. Everything was shot tighter and with a tinge of old school Christmas cheer around the edges. Touches of green and gold. Some red too. There was a lot of love in their house that night.

This year? It was shot in wide shots. People weren’t sitting as closely. The place felt impersonal and even a bit gaudy.  When the wanted a close shot, it was still a still and front facing two shot. It felt cold. Dark even. The Dingles were all there, but their hearts were long gone or have gone dark.  They were wishing people dead, some were inviting themselves to the party (We will get to Alex later) and Aaron was in his own personal hell.  The Dingles weren’t the warmth this year. They were the cold. Hint of things to come?

The Sugdens

The Sugden Family is a dying breed. They were once the main family (legacy family) but now they feel like an endangered species. I really felt this way after they started writing Victoria this year that the family was seriously in trouble.

I don’t anymore. I’m glad that one of my favorites, Victoria, was back today. I felt her again. She was worried about her brother and her husband. She was a friend to Aaron. She had her worries, but she knew her family, who was in her reach, needed her. It was nice to see complexity come back and not just be a plot device. I loved it. Welcome back Victoria.

Diane felt the same to me. Doug surprised me. I figured he would be a bit cruel or say something stupid, but he showed up with food and he seemed to care. There was a feeling of family. It was small, but it was there. It was nice to see. I felt more warmth with them than the Dingles today.

Lawrence White

Praise John for acting his butt off today. I love how Lawrence still showed up to talk to Robert. He didn’t yell. He didn’t accuse. He was just there to listen. Give Robert his ‘in’ too.

As for dream Lawrence. I think, that Lawrence represented some of the audience as well as the other characters in the village. I noticed he said some stuff I’ve seen written by the general audience and even a few anti’s.  Which, didn’t upset me but showed that the show is aware of what others are feeling outside the fandom. Did I agree with everything he said about Robert? No but I think even Robert feels that way about himself sometimes. Also, Jack’s influence is in there with Lawrence’s appearance.

Rebecca White

Emily Head. I’m not a fan but when she gets to play black widow, she shines. Victim? She looks lost. Not so much. I don’t buy it. Especially in her scenes with Robert as he laid there.

‘Is he dead?’ COULD THAT HAVE SOUNDED MORE FLAT AND UNCARING? I don’t know if it was scripted that way but my god. It was bad. Bad line read. Also, bringing Seb over to see his father on the ground? What the frack? It was odd. Detached. Like she was fine showing Seb something that sad.  Which…woah.

In the dream, her attitude towards Robert, talking about how he approaches business (once again hearing some GA comments and even antis). She was good and seemed to care about what she was saying. She plays black widow so well. SERIOUSLY. That is her strength.

The Seb thing. I mean, Justine and I have wondered if a medical emergency could bring into play paternity. I don’t know. It might have been Robert’s own fears as a dad. It might have been his mind who was in a dark place. I still think something is up there. I just don’t know what yet.

Lachlan White

Lachlan is the more interesting White as per usual. Robert sees him as evil and up to something. He will always be doing something to him. Which, might have been foreshadowing. Killer Lachlan is rising? Maybe? Dream Lachlan and Real Lachlan didn’t have any changes. Also, he was attached to Alex shocking him back to existence. Which…well…. Lachlan might be the shot in the arm to get this story going? Maybe. Either way, he was the most direct and most obvious from dream to real life.

Chrissie White


Alex Mason

It’s not secret that I don’t like Alex. I find him plotty. I find him annoying. I find him needy. I find him pushy. I don’t like the guy. Today, I found him all those things at once. He shows up to the Dingles without being asked. He was a bit harsh with Robert and didn’t seem to believe him when he said to fight for Aaron. We know how this ends with Aaron tomorrow but yes. Even after all that, like my friend Kat said, he wasn’t a factor. Yes, he was in the episode and had an impact but not really. He was just…a non-factor. He was there to push along a tiny plot thread that I think will be tied up by the second week of January and not by Robert but by Aaron.

Aaron Dingle

There has been a lot of talk about Aaron and choice. His choice. Family choice. Robert’s choice. The show addressed that tonight and that made me realize that the Robron/Aaron fandom was right on point. Aaron and his choice. Aaron has a been a bit passive lately. He did things for himself but mostly let his family dictate things, let Robert make a few decisions and even let Liv move him along. I had a lot of problems with that.

Tonight, Aaron made his choices…kind of. Ok, this might feel jumbled because my mind is still very jumbled about my favorite bearded bunny.  Ok…let me see if I can get out what I am feeling about Aaron and choice.

I think Alex is being pushed on to Aaron by his family.

Victoria kind of pushed Aaron towards Robert.

Chas pushed Aaron to leave the hospital faster.

Ok. Aaron has three choices. Go with his families choice. Go with Victoria’s. Go with his own. This is when it gets complicated. I think Aaron hit his limit this Christmas. I think listening to his family, Victoria and then Robert’s opinions set him over. I think he had decided and then Robert and what he said, changed that again. If that makes sense.

Aaron loves Robert. They are soulmates (more on that in their own section) and I think he went in there ready to pick Robert but at the same time…he still wasn’t there or sure. He fought Robert but still backed off quickly. So, Aaron makes his decision, but he makes the easy one?

I’m so confused by what they are trying to accomplish with Aaron. I feel like Aaron will get his taste of a normal relationship and grow bored or find what he doesn’t want. Then he will start making decisions (Robert is his best friend but he isn’t going to be pushing anything onto him) that will lead him to support Robert in a quiet way (healthier way?) that leads us to reunion.

I’m very confused about Aaron right now. Obviously. I love him but Aaron…baby….honey…you can design your life the way you want. I wish you would learn that you can be happy with your choices. Support is great and needed but you have to make the decisions in your life. Time for you to do that.

Robert Sugden

Robert has had quite the ride today. I think Robert’s dream was an over exaggerated version of how he feels about himself and a mix of what he thinks others think about him. There were quite a few truths and Val’s section was less about how he feels but what could be if he continues down this road he has been on all year. 2018 will be a different year for him. He won’t change completely (no soap character does) but I think a lot of his worse qualities that have been played up all year will calm down and Robert will learn more. LISTEN more. Val keep saying listen. Robert needs to listen. He has already started. He listened to Victoria. He listened to Alex. He listened to Diane and Doug. He listened to Lawrence between talking to him about Seb.

Speaking of Seb. I think Robert will focus on being a dad now. He made the choice to concentrate on being a better dad to his son which I know is a sticking point for a lot of fans. It needs to happen even if Seb doesn’t stay.  Robert does love his child. Don’t take that away from him fandom. Yes, it is a representation of a very bad year for Robert but in time…those memories fade. Believe me, they will on a soap. Again, I’m still not sure this kid is sticking around. They still haven’t cast another baby and even weirder they didn’t cast twins outright. Something is going on there and we aren’t allowed to know just yet.

Robert isn’t a bad person. He isn’t the worst soap character on that show (Charity and Cain spring to mind) but now Robert has been given an episode. He was given a chance to better himself for himself and no one else. He is being given the chance by writers to make himself an even deeper legacy character. This is good. I like this. Did I mention how much I LOVE RYAN HAWLEY?!?! Ahem…yes. He was good. GREAT. He was great.


WOW. Do those two idiots love each other. Beyond just love. They are soulmates. My heart was beating a mile a minute and I was holding my breath. Bad combo by the way. HA. Those two. Man. They just gave us a nice highway to reunion and marriage. Yes, they did. Hear me out.

Robert knows that holding onto Aaron isn’t healthy. Not in the state he is in. He needs to get better for himself. Get himself together and then be a dad to Seb.

Aaron wants to hold on, but I think even he knows holding on isn’t healthy. He needs to go off and do something else. Date Alex for instance.

Both don’t want to let go but they must. They have to do what is best for themselves while being friends (lets kid ourselves…they will never be completely out of each other’s lives…maybe in death and even then they will haunt each other).  They need to rebuild and to rebuild with a foundation of friendship…that’s good. That is strong. That will last longer than just build a new relationship with old hurt and memories still lingering in the background.

This was clean break. A clean slate. A reason for them to build again. I might even get my wish. A reverse of last time only healthier. Aaron gets to do what he needs to do. Finds his way and then stands in the background as Roberts support as he deals with final White drama.

Friends. Best friends.

It hurts like hell. It hurts so bad. That cheek kiss broke me. Aaron crying. Robert crying. It hurt. IT HURT LIKE A STICK ON A BUTTCHEEK. It was needed and we are on the way. WE ARE IN THE FINAL ACT PEOPLE. LETS DO THIS.


That scene with Gerry and Aaron walking down in that nice suit. I’m going to echo my dear friend Justine here. Maybe that was foreshadowing for a wedding. Aaron’s wedding suit? MAYBE?!?!

My fanfiction touches a lot on what was touched on in this episode today. Not as great as the real thing but I feel like I’m not wasting my time sticking around and being positive. I’m not too stupid. *wink*

Gerry is a great addition. I can’t wait to see him be fleshed out.

I loved Jimmy and his boxers (WHAT DID THAT ALL MEAN?!?!) I can’t get a handle on what they were trying to do with Jimmy other than the obvious. I wonder if that was a hint at things to come for Jimmy. He is getting a storyline. He kept mentioning having a good idea for the scrapyard. Which is…worrisome.

Small thing in the hospital. Robert’s name was always placed above Alex’s. Yes, its protocol but I think that was a wink that Robert will ALWAYS be above Alex. *LET ME HAVE THIS*

Whew. I know not everyone will agree. I may have overthought or not thought through enough.  That episode gave me so many feels and I still have feels writing this. I loved it. It hurt like hell but I know…its for the best. I see people think this means Robron are over but not at all. This is a new beginning. Exactly what they need for 2018.

*glasses up*

Lets hang on and follow this out. WE ARE ALMOST THERE. WE ARE CLOSE TO REUNION (my guess? February. Maxine episodes) and seeing AARON AND ROBERT GET STRONGER AWAY FROM EACH OTHER AND TOGETHER. Bring it on.


Emmerdale Title Card

Emmerdale Live and Organized – December 12, 2017

Welcome to the preshow! I don’t have much to say other than this.


So…yes. Please don’t do that. Tag your spoilers, and please be considerate of people who want to to be surprised by what the show has to offer. Take care of you and what you want to see but be sure to remember not everyone wants to see spoilers. Let’s be a kind and considerate fandom. Let’s be better than we have been.

Thank you!

Let’s crack on!

Moira’s Farm

Moira needs help. I keep writing this, and it’s not happening. Well, little baby steps are being taken, but I worry about her.

Isaac is huge. What a cutie.

OH, Moira. NO. Don’t do it. DON’T DO IT.

I love the camera angles in this episode. Whoever the director was for this episode? You are amazing.

I’m a fan of signs and looking for signs but Moira…NOT A SIGN. DON’T DO IT.

Oh god. NO. Moira. Honey. This is going to be so bad it’s not even funny. *sad face*

The Café Crew

Bob. Don’t mention AGE! Geez.

Could Vadam look further away? The staging of this conversation is interesting. The camera work too. They are both on their own little worlds even though they are sitting next to each other. Good camera work there.

Geez Harriet. WE GET IT. Emma. Funeral. WE KNOW.

Cain looks tired. He looked younger smiling at Moira, but today he looks tired. *sad face*

Awwwww. Cain is defending Moira. *Heart eyes*

The Bartons


Oh, look! My new favorite ship. We need a name. Victoria and Ross. COME UP WITH A NAME FANDOM!

Ross and Aaron have a thing for Sugdens. Just saying.

The Thomas Family

SANDY! I would call the police. I want my chocolate too! JUSTICE FOR ARTHUR!

Laurel messing with Arthur about the chocolate was cute.

Do kids always come home at lunch? I’m confused. I had to stay.

DOTTIE! That’s ok. She can have all the chocolate in the world! *giggles*

That’s a sweet tree. *my cold heart warms*

“We all did something we wish we haven’t…” – EVERY SOAP CHARACTER AT THIS TIME FEELS THIS.


UMMMMMMMMM….no pills for Moira. Please don’t. Don’t take pills. I beg of this doctor.

Oh god. Good. Wait…no. Crap. Moira is going to do something stupid, isn’t she?

Vadam’s Makeshift House

I can’t point and laugh anymore because they redesigned two rooms of their house. BOO show. BOO.

Adam. Oh boy. That doesn’t look bad for him at all. *eye roll*

The Barton’s are falling apart at the seams.


Thanks to Justine for mentioning this to me. They rebuild two rooms for this nonsense but couldn’t build a set for when Rebecca lived there? HA. Just saying. *high five to Justine*

Wishing Well

Thanks for the descriptor Sam. *snort*

Caramel Latte is the future. I agree.

Sigh. Can we call Dr. Flat ass and get this over with? I fucking hate this guy. He is more annoying than Rebecca at this point. Well, no. Rebecca and Alex are both in the plot device hall of fame of pointlessness.

You know what? I think Aaron is only there to get Dr. Flat Ass there. Usually, he would be off with Liv and working.

This is plotty as fuck, and I will complain about that all I want.

David’s Grocery

I have fake trees. We don’t have time for that. Hallmark would be disappointed in me. *American moment*

Yes. Brenda does want to see who goes. Also, so do I. *snort*

Oh hey. Was that a hint that Paddy will cheat on Chas? *Sorry for the people who love them. I don’t want to take anything away from you guys*

The Pub Crew

Yeah. Vadam is so strong. So, all of October looks so fucking stupid now. *LAUGHS*


Thanks, Vic.

‘It’s Just Speculation!’

Originally posted by star-wars-is-life

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Emmerdale – The Punch Method of Storytelling

This is what happens when it is late, I have had too much coffee, and I am discussing the Robert/Robron storyline as it stands against the other big storylines of the 2017 year.  So, my dear friend and I were talking about a twist. Any twist. The “TWIST” or just a twist for the Robert/Robron storyline and will it happen. That is when my crazy mind came up with this:


I know. I am an amazing artist. There is an explanation for this lovely drawing of mine. I noticed that all the stories this year had the same structure. I call it the PUNCH method of storytelling. I am sure there is an official name for it, but I am naming it something cute. So, deal with it. The PUNCH method of Storytelling is when we are feeling like we are just moving along without anything happening and things are just there and then out of nowhere in the last episode we get PUNCHED into an interesting conclusion. Ok, not everyone finds it interesting, but I do. So, where am I going with this? Let me break it down for you and then explain how it relates to the Robert/Robron story.

The Fake Nell Storyline

For the longest time, Nell was just there. We were getting developments from her but then her personality would switch. She would be nice one minute and mean the next. We all thought it was just writing issues or the story was shifting. A good amount of the GA was getting bored with her and her confusing personality shifts. Then…


In one episode we got punched in the face with what Nell was up to since she showed up in Emmerdale. She was playing everyone because she needs and craves attention she just doesn’t get any more. We get a big chase, and we even got an open ending that had many people talking. We went from meandering and wondering if Nell would be a background character to punched in the face and saying goodbye to the crazy one.

The Emma Storyline/Killer Storyline

This one is in progress but watching Emma go crazy has been a high point for me. I do not know about fandom, but it has been a fun ride. However, the crazy Emma drama seemed to become boring. Going in circles and the stop and go nature of the storyline, bored people. Then…


Emma went into overdrive setting barns on fire, attacking a pregnant person, developing the child, shooting her son, going on the run, stealing said child, leaving a child in church and then being pushed off a bridge. PUNCH PUNCH PUNCH PUNCH PUNCH. So much in so little time. This has not ended yet but its coming then we get the final punch! *If you tell me who killed Emma, I will break your legs. Don’t try me.*

Moira’s Surprise Storyline

Moira seemed to disappear most of the year. Only to appear at weird moments in the pub or to talk to Cain or Adam. Yes, I know. Anyone online and within the little pockets of fandom figured it out, but from the GA point of view, Moira was gone. She did not have a storyline and was just there to support whoever needing supporting in her family. Then…


We have a surprise birth in a burning barn as a crazy woman delivers the child she never knew existed. The GA loses their minds, and the pockets of fandom nod happily that they guessed a storyline correctly. Also, the dramatics were off the charts and all types of awesome.

The Snore Triangle

This is a bit…grasping at straws but its there. We were stuck watching Leyla get further and further into wedding plans with Pete (which was a mistake) while he slept with her best friend, Pryia. Going so far as to sleep with Pryia in the honeymoon suite after the wedding was aborted. After all that we got…


Leyla finds out and goes on a rampage that felt stratifying to the viewer. She went after Pete and then Priya and then got more of her anger out on her dress. It was not a punch but a nice slap for the audience. The triangle was done, and we got a nice classic soap ending.

The Eric/Faith Storyline

I am adding this as I wait for the second half of the episode to air. This has been building and building. Eric is falling for Faith. Then he is trying to hide his involvement in the Dingles house being taken. It goes in circles for a few weeks and then Eric goes to get proof from the politician that it was all on him then…


The politician set up Eric. Faith found out. All happening at once. The fallout all happening at once. We are punched with answers and resolution.

So, where am I going with this?

Robert/Robron Storyline

We have been going in circles since the July breakup. Robert does something. Aaron does something. We are stuck watching the Whites react. Lather. Rinse. Repeat. THEN…



Based on the pattern of all the big storylines of 2017, I think we are due for a punch with this story. What do you think it will be? Leave me a comment below or shoot me your thoughts on my Tumblr @AmandaJ718. I do not check my twitter as often as I used to so that is a place that might be hard to find me.

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