Emmerdale Live and Organized – October 23, 2017

Welcome to the pre-show! I don’t have anything to say today. I’m kind of feel like I’m a broken record telling people to hold on and it’s going to be ok. Everyone knows it out there, but they let people who love to make the fandom burn and be miserable take over their lives. Guys. It will be ok. I swear. It will be ok. It’s okay to hate the story. It’s okay to hate how we got here. However, we can’t hate the level of acting Ryan has shown us throughout this story. It has been amazing so far, and I know there is more amazing to come. So, make sure you wish him a Happy Third Anniversary on your favorite social media platforms!


So, that’s about it. Let’s crack on.


Victoria. That isn’t your baby. Back the frack off!

Benji does sound like a dog. BECAUSE IT IS.

YES. YOU SHOULD BACK OFF. Oh…this explains why she runs back to Rebecca. She needs to be around a baby. Doesn’t matter who the mother is. Got it. This is all about Victoria. OH…so many theories just popped up.

Moira’s Farm

FAITH! “I used to have a crush on Isaac Hayes!” HA. Love it.

Baby Isaac is officially named.

Moira does care. She does. She is just a mess of emotions.

I see Holly is framed in all those shots. Very good show. Very good.

Moira. Honey. You need help. Seriously. You need help. I mean this in the nicest way possible. You aren’t well. It’s not your fault but you aren’t well.

I love the friendship between Faith and Moira. They are family now. *warm heart*

OH Moira! Honey! No! You aren’t to blame for Holly or Baby Isaac.



Natalie has been amazing. *THROWS ALL THE AWARDS AT HER*

“We might need an alternative vicar though.” – Faith *HA*

Oh god. Social services are going to show up. Crap. CRAP ON A CRACKER.

David’s Grocery

“My sister is a catch!” – Awww Tracy. Cutie.

Robert being comfortable with his sexuality is my jam…man. He has come so far!

Jimmy has a Tumblr! Does that mean…Emmerdale has a Tumblr too? Are they…watching? *gets paranoid*

Robert is right. That is what Vanessa needs to do. She needs to experiment and find what makes her happiest.

Whenever Robert is away from any of the Whites, he becomes human. He fits into the village so well too. More proof that the Whites hold him back. Hold him back to that past that he can be better than and he should want to be better. I think that is where we are heading here. Exciting times ahead my friends.

The Pub Crew

I hate that Adam gets to do whatever he wants and everything works out in his favor. Something is coming for those two. Vadam is dead in the water guys.

Yes, Adam. Name a baby. *ADAM THEORY FOREVER*

No. Victoria is a pushy bitch lately. It’s getting on my nerves. So much. Something big is coming for her.

Vadam is dead in the water. Why the adoption talk? WHEN DID YOU WORK THROUGH ANYTHING? You just decided to leave it all in the past. We know that doesn’t work. Robert and Aaron can tell you that.

Charity is terrible right now. It’s not funny either. It’s getting annoying and pissing me off.


The Barton Brothers

Oh. Thanks Debbie for showing up a million years later. I know she has an excuse but…BOO!

I find Ross boring when he is in ‘mourning’ mode. That’s just me though.

I think Debbie was with Tom and she feels guilty, hence the excuses.

The Bartons keep having connecting scenes but only when the baby is involved. *THEORY FOREVER*

The Hospital

Moira. He is just crying. Maybe if you held him for longer than a second, he would stop! It will be ok. Oh god. My heart. *BUBBLE WRAPS MOIRA AND BABY ISAAC*

That baby is the cutest thing! *waves at the baby through the computer*

Oh no. Child services will get involved. Crap on a cracker.

The Café Crew

Oh hey. Tom give Debbie flowers. Nice. I guess. I guess we will see more of Tom? Maybe? Please. TAKE OVER HOME FARM TOM.

‘It’s Just Speculation!

Originally posted by lets-catch-some-waves

As per usual: Stay off the message boards, respect each other’s opinions, breathe, reboot and eat a Snickers. If you want to talk theory or the show come on over to my twitter and Tumblr @AmandaJ718

Until next time, see you around in Emmerdale!


Devils Advocate: Part Two (More Devil. Less Advocate.)

(First Part Here)

Every day there seems to be a new meltdown. Sometimes it feels like every hour. Since March the majority of the Robron fandom has been overreacting to spoilers to a degree of craziness.  Lots of fears are being preyed on by people who value clicks over telling the truth.  Also, people who don’t understand how to read a crowd. Regardless, people are melting down, and I’m here to say…


As someone who overanalyzes the show to a degree, I have picked up on many visual and verbal cues on where the narrative focus is going. I’ve outlined a few bits of speculation I have seen on social media and why it could or couldn’t work with the current narrative I’m seeing. So, get something to drink, get your favorite snack and come hang out with me in narrative overanalyzing land for three popular speculations.

Speculation #1: The Baby Will Die

This speculation has been around since that one spoiler showed up on twitter (I’m not talking about it here because I’m not Darren).  People speculate that since Rebecca mentioned to Robert, “She was just making sure things were ok.” in that one July episode, something might be wrong with the baby.

Why It Could Happen

The baby is a big thorn in everyone’s sides. On Robert and Aarons side (they aren’t ready to be parents, and they need to work on themselves) and The Whites side (they don’t want to be connected to Robert for life).  This baby has been pushed aside for so many plot cul-de-sacs or as I call it, Roberts Revenge Breakdown, that the show might see the baby as expendable. I know that is upsetting since the only innocent person in this whole storyline is that baby.  However, it’s the one piece of the puzzle that the show itself is ignoring. Like, it isn’t an important factor. It reminds me of cleaning up all the loose ends, the baby is a loose end. Again, I know its hard to hear, but that is how the show is presenting the baby at the time of this writing.

Also, killing the baby (I really do hate writing that) gives everyone involved extra drama. Aaron will feel guilty for wanting the baby to die, Robert will feel guilty for not caring about the baby while it was alive, The Whites…I’m not sure how they would feel. We, once again, don’t know much of how they feel. Maybe that would be used to set off their exit mixed in with finding out about Robert’s schemes. Either way, killing the baby off would set off all the key characters down a new path.

Why It Can’t Happen

Here is what I know.  What have we seen of the baby so far? Have we seen the baby on a screen? Have we heard the heartbeat? Have we had excitement over the child from Rebecca? Have we seen some attachment from Robert? If you answered yes to any of these, you haven’t been watching very closely or only listening to the most hysterical among us.

If they are talking about killing off the baby (I hate writing that by the way) they would make sure we saw that baby. We would see the scans. We would hear that heartbeat. We would get clear viewpoints on how Rebecca and Robert are feeling going forward through this story.  Rebecca goes missing from her own story these days. The only reason we are getting what we are getting with Rebecca and Robert (I will not spoil what is coming up this week. I am not Darren) is because Aaron is back. Chas is back. All the players are back on the board. If the baby were leaving us, we would care about the baby. We don’t. We care from an empathic frame of reference (no one wants to see a baby be hurt or die).  However, from a character or storyline point? We don’t care. We really don’t. As a fandom, we barely talk about the baby. We talk about Rebecca and The Whites but not the baby. For the baby to die, it would need to be for impact or to talk about an event many families experiences (Laurel and Ashley’s Baby story for example).  We don’t care about the kid as an audience. Looks like Eliza and Baby Dingle-Barton will get the special social issues. Nothing left for Baby White.  Just killing off a baby randomly isn’t good storytelling and I don’t think it will happen randomly.

Speculation #2: Robert/Aaron and Rebecca will Co-Parent the Kid

This is self-explanatory. After everything is out in the open, Robert and Aaron find their way back to each other, and The Whites future has been decided; Robert, Aaron, and Rebecca would play nice to raise the baby together.

Why It Can Happen

Co-parenting, while weird, is a soap staple. Some of the strangest groups of soap characters have made it work since the creation of the genre. While it isn’t feasible before the baby is born this could be developed after everything is closed off and used as a new storyline.  Robert and Aaron find their way back to each other, Rebecca is the last White standing, all the schemes and other problems with the storyline is resolved, and we are left with a baby and Robron. From that point on we can have Robert and Aaron work on their own relationship and their relationship with the baby. Meanwhile, the show can put the time and effort in to give Rebecca a personality and maybe likable to the audience by having her weave herself into the village ( a tall order, I know).  Meanwhile, the three of them bond over the baby. The baby is what brings them to a friendly place.

*Even I can’t make this work. I’m tap dancing…hard.*

Why It Can’t Happen

The show has made it known that Rebecca isn’t sticking around.  There has been much speculation about this and based off what we have seen, there is no reason for her to stick around. Her family is on their way out. She only appears at Home Farm and only at other places if her family or Robert is present.  She doesn’t have friends outside of the Sugdens or even The Dingles (Victoria and Debbie respectfully). In fact, Victoria is only interested in Rebecca when it calls for plot points to be made. Same with Debbie. That friendship seemed to die off when Debbie noted how giddy Rebecca looked about Robert and Aaron breaking up, telling her to move to the back room while they were there. Since then it’s been limited at best.

Another beat that would have to develop is the relationship with Robert and Aaron. If the three are to co-parent, they would have to develop those relationships. The show would have started to have the three of them start to be friendly with each other. If anything, the three would have to start this friendly relationship way before the child is born for it to make sense. Especially when the whites are on their way out from November to January.  Rebecca would need a touchstone that isn’t her family, and so far she is still attached to them.

Speaking of Rebecca, she would have to develop a personality that doesn’t depend on the plot. Also, the show would have to make her likable to the Robron audience which is a tall order. Right now, we see her mocking Lydia and her position in life, mocking the businesses in town and especially mocking the scrapyard (Robert and Aarons business).  She is looking down on the village and everything it stands for which doesn’t make her popular with the audience. We, the audience, are attached to this crazy place and the people in it.  Having a character look down on that while co-parenting with too extremely popular and beloved characters? Yeah, that won’t fly at all. She would need a whole new personality transplant, and that would take way too much time to develop.

Also, would any sane person let Robert near that kid after the schemes he has pulled on her and her family? No. Yes, Rebecca has always gone with Robert because she has no brain cells left in her head but this time she will use that to run from the village and Robert with the kid.  Roberts schemes aren’t pretty and wouldn’t make him trustworthy to her or The Whites.

Speculation #3: Rebecca and Robert are in Love/Robert and Rebecca will Be a Couple

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Yeah. I can’t even give this a real go without laughing because it ISN’T GOING TO HAPPEN. Believe me. Jimmy and Robert have a better chance of falling in love and becoming a couple than these two. I’m going to refer you to this post I wrote about the ways the show isn’t going there with them.  It still fits.

LET THAT FEAR GO. It won’t be a thing. Not even Robert pretending is happening. He picked Lawrence for that cliché. While hilarious, we now have to suffer through that but its better than suffering through what most were afraid of, Robert and Rebecca. Count your blessings, my friends. It could be worse.

Narratively the show is heading in a way that no one can predict. Don’t listen to the people of the internet who are looking for clicks/attention and not trying to be a productive member of this fandom.  They are there to cause panic and people thinking the worst of the show.  Remember, Emmerdale isn’t terrible. It is telling a crappy story badly right now and just happened to pick two of their most popular characters/couple to do it.  Do not despair. This is their big story, and the big stories get the big twists. It may not be the twist you wanted or expected, but something is coming. Something to wrap up the story and move us towards a new frontier for Robert/Robron.  I find that thinking through the possibilities this story can go (how it works and doesn’t work) helps calm the soul and just enjoy the ride. What else helps? Finding a group or one friend to complain to. Get out all your frustrations with them, and then you will see clearly. That is what fandom is for. Talking things through. Challenge each other to think beyond the groupthink. Challenge each other to think of the good and bad. Challenge each other to laugh. If not for one’s nerves but for one’s sanity.

Everything feels messy and crazy, but I’m convinced the show wants it that way. They want us to be surprised. They want us to wonder what is going to happen next. Regardless of people trying to ruin the ride, sit back and take each punch as it comes. It will be ok in the end.

This is just my opinion on the current speculation I hear out there. What do you think? Have you heard about other possible avenues this story could go? Do you have an opinion you need to yell out? Come on over to my tweet and Tumblr @AmandaJ718. I’m listening. So, until next time, see you around in Emmerdale.

Emmerdale Not So Live But Still Organized – October 20, 2017

Welcome to the late very late pre-show. This will be quick.

This fandom is large. It is very diverse and full of opinions. Not all those opinions will match up, and people will clash. If I have ever made anyone feel uncomfortable or upset over an opinion expressed in a review, theory/speculation blog post or on any of my social media, I am sorry. However, I will not apologize for liking or disliking a character or storyline. If you don’t like what I have to say: Unfollow me. Mute me. Block me. Ignore me.

I try to learn from my mistakes, and I know words have more power than anyone can imagine. There are certain words I will never use in this fandom again. One word, in particular, is upsetting to one side of the fandom and I will hold back on saying it from now on out of respect. However, I will not stop having an opinion about characters or storylines. I am not trying to be a bully. I’m standing up for myself and my thoughts. Calling me or my friend’s names will get you blocked. Calling me a bully because I don’t agree with your opinion? Gets you blocked.  Swearing at me? Figure out the pattern yet? (Hint: BLOCKED).

Some people need to grow up. Not everyone is going to like the same things as you. Talking these differences out respectfully is what makes this fandom fun. Let’s make this fandom fun again.

Ok? Good, now, on with the show.

Moira’s House

Faith isn’t helping the situation, but I agree. I am a firm believer in having a good cry. It can make everything better in the end.

Jack and Sarah look excited to see their new Uncle. It’s very cute.

Sarah is adorable. I hope they don’t go where I think they will go with her.

That baby! It is the cutest thing in existence.

Moira. Honey! He wants to be picked up and given a hug. He wants his mom to love him.

Oh god. She is off running. NO! MOIRA! Poor Moira. Poor baby! *BUBBLE WRAP FOR MILES*


“The telly is the heart of the home!” – Kerry *COMPLETELY AGREE*

Amelia is a sweet kid. She is street smart though, and that will keep her safe in life.


Home Farm

OH GOD. Robert is playing him so hard. It’s making me laugh and I have to look away. I won’t lie, I will miss most of their scenes from nervously laughing and having to look away. *bits the bubble wrap to hide a scream of pain*

Lachlan is the only one who has a good head on his shoulders.

I’d like to point out that at every point in this first scene, Lawrence/Rebecca/Chrissie all laid big hero eyes at Robert. Damn boy. I’m impressed. Lachlan…the only one. Aaron would see though all this because Aaron knows Robert. Lachlan seems to know too. Those three idiots don’t. It’s just…. interesting. That’s all.


Well, Chrissie is back on, “Robert what are you doing?” kick. Well, Lawrence is in his palm. *slowly claps for Robert*

“I’ve always been on the outside.” There is a lot of truth to that. One thing I think got Robert by during those nine years away was his charms, his quick thinking, and his plans. This is like he has gone back to that. Anything for revenge. Anything to survive. He is on the outside, and that is all he has left, in his mind anyway. It’s really sad.

I’m analyzing Roberts state of mind because the scenes between Lawrence and Robert are laughable. The actors are soooo not into it (they are trying so hard) but its just…FUNNY. *SNORTS* *Has to look away*

The Café Crew

I feel bad for Daz. His mistakes he made in the past are just slapping him.

I do like how Daz admits that he has a past and knows it could be problems for his future. I feel for Dan and Daz. I know he is backing his brother, which is sweet, but that is going to backfire. It always does on a soap.

I love this little family of Daz/Dan/Amelia/Kerry. ADORABLE. I’m into it. *high fives everyone*


“Moira doesn’t want me.” – Cain *SOOOO NOT TRUE*

Ah. Tom. Welcome back, Tom. Kind of welcome back. I don’t know.

“At least Pete was a steady loser.” – Cain *snorts*

I won’t lie. I kind of love seeing Debbie stand up for her dad. It’s kind of cute. In a Dingle sort of way.

Cain/Police Station *TOGETHER FOREVER* (Featuring Moira)

Cain is an expert at police interviews.

I mean, after everything that went down, who didn’t want to kill Emma.

Moira let’s not upset the detective. Let’s not overdo it.

Moira is trying to protect Cain. Either she is guilty of something or she thinks Cain did something for her and *COIRA LOVE* *SING-SONG VOICE*

The Pub Crew

I’m worried about so many characters on this show. Harriet included.

What a weird line. Victoria keeps all her messages because of Adam? Was that a plot point or something stupid? WAIT…WAIT! Oh…right…. *I’m keeping this to myself for now*

Lydia! I adore how all her favorite names are in her life! *MY HEART JUST GREW TWO SIZES*

Cain is trying to figure out of Moira did something. Moira thinks Cain did something. Coira trying to keep each other safe.

‘It’s Just Speculation!’


As per usual: Stay off the message boards, respect each other’s opinions, breathe, reboot and eat a Snickers. If you want to talk theory or the show come on over to my twitter and Tumblr @AmandaJ718

Until next time, see you around in Emmerdale!

Emmerdale Live and Organized – October 19, 2017

Welcome to the pre-show. Some announcements before I move on. I will not be around on Friday to watch live. I am getting my ‘blonded’ back up, and a haircut (Thank god!) and I will be watching and giving my opinions on the episode later on in the day. Watch this space for more information!

Alright. What is on my mind today. Negativity. I’m seeing a lot of negativity again on my dashes and feeds about this storyline. Which is fine. I get negative too. Being negative is healthy. It saves you from being taken for a ride.  It keeps your brain thinking of all angles of a situation.

However, you can’t stay in negativity for long. There needs to be a healthy balance. Half positive and half negative. We all know the negatives, but I’m listing some positives. I’m positive Ryan will be amazing. He has been amazing during this whole storyline, and I better see some awards with his name on it. Fan related or otherwise. I am positive as we go forward the groundwork for the reunion will be laid soon. Robert and Aaron have to start talking at some point. Even if it is just to help Liv out or even to check in on him, something has to move there. Another positive? The more we push forward the closer we get to the Whites exit.

A lot is happening and being negative is fine, but don’t forget the positives too. There is always a light at the end of the dark tunnel my friends. My advice? Find some bitch buddies. Create a private chat and get out all your anxiety in there. It makes life so much easier.  Also? Don’t stress over things you cannot change. Sit back, get your bitch buddies into the room and enjoy the show!

Also. GOATS.

Let’s crack on shall we?

The Home Farm

Rebecca is the stupidest person in the history of all time. She can’t be this stupid. She made a point of saying Robert isn’t involved. Like, she wanted his name out there.

Did they work really well together? We never saw them together other than a few scenes?

I see Rebecca is the new favorite daughter. How long will that last for?

So…Robert didn’t kill him. How do I know? As my dear friend Justine said, “His face didn’t match the face he made when Katie was accidentally killed.” I agree with her (as per usual).

There is Robert’s in. “I did this for you!”


Is the brandy still drugged?

Here come the Lawrence and Robert stuff. GOD. I’m laughing and cringing.

The Café Crew

Bob and Brenda were adorable. Dancing together. Cute.

I don’t understand the Frank and Megan relationship now. They are back on, but he still vowed revenge. Maybe it’s over now. The revenge stuff at least.

Daz is acting weird. Stop acting weird dude. You are finally getting it together! Oh. Never mind.

Oh boy. Daz owes money. This will get nuts.

Moira’s Farm

Moira decided to vacuum while the baby was sleeping in the same room? OH BOY.

Victoria is so obsessed with babies she is going to kidnap one, isn’t she? HA.

Faith is right. Every generation thinks they know better. My mom told me that once.

Victoria. VICTORIA. FAITH. Moira is drowning. SHE ISN’T INTO HER CHILD! Oh boy.

Moira is in such a dangerous state. *BUBBLE WRAP*

“Where is Victoria?” “The wannabe child expert?” – Faith *LOVE IT*

That baby just snuggles up to people. He is so freaking cute!

OH. Moira. Honey. Two kids. No Holly mention. *sad face*

The Factory

NICOLA! Hey girl! Whats up? I just saw her scenes with Jimmy and how they met. They are adorable, and I love them so much.

Jai is in denial. I’d want her to get the best help as soon as possible.

The Pub Crew

Tim tried to run Chrissie over and Robert “saved” her. *LMAO*


Considering Tim “hates” doing this he went along with things easily. *side eye*

Chrissie hugging him. *HA*

OH, MY GOD. He is setting up Tim now. I LOVE HIM. This story is just so dumb. I love it. I love it so much. All part of the plan? Wow. Did a Robert plan actually work?

No. It didn’t. IT NEVER DOES. *HA*

So, I’m TEAM TIM. He wants to take out all the Whites? Fine by me! *Have fun storming the castle!*

Rebecca didn’t seem all that upset that her sister was almost killed. She did at first award then she just stood there. Blinking. What the hell? Was that scripted that way or is that just more wonderful acting from Emily?

HA! Maybe I was right. I think Harriet will be questioning her faith and her time as a vicar. I think Katherine would be amazing at that type of storyline.

Kerry and Dan’s Place

Seriously. Stranger Danger IDIOTS! Don’t they teach that in the UK?

Amelia is going to get hurt. I can feel it. Oh no!

Oh. Poor Daz. His past is just slapping him across the face.

“It’s Just Stuff.” – Kerry (truth) I love that she is offended she didn’t want her stuff. *HA*

Amelia has a mouth on her. I love that!

‘It’s Just Speculation!’

Originally posted by mygodthefeels

As per usual: Stay off the message boards, respect each other’s opinions, breathe, reboot and eat a Snickers. If you want to talk theory or the show come on over to my twitter and Tumblr @AmandaJ718

Until next time, see you around in Emmerdale!

The White Family Analzyed – A Visual Review

Since 2014, The White Family has been the fixture at Home Farm. Chrissie, Lachlan, Lawrence, and Dog brought back with them a legacy at Emmerdale, Robert Sugden, to stir up the village for the better (Robert) and for the worst (the rest of them and Rebecca). The Whites are the typical wealthy family that comes across being the ones with taste. They have options and could live anywhere, but they moved to Emmerdale. Since their arrival (and Rebecca White’s arrival) they have been polarizing in the fandom. Some enjoy them while others want them dead and gone.

It is no secret that I hate The White Family.  They are one Home Farm family that doesn’t seem to fit in any way shape or form. This becomes painfully obvious as I work my way through some older episodes of Emmerdale and watch those Home Farm families integrate into the village with ease.  Robert has come back and found his way back into the fabric and heart of the village. The White Family, not so much.

Recently, on Tuesday’s episode (10/17/2017) there was a small scene that grabbed my attention. It seemed to set up the rest of the week, but I saw something bigger. It seemed to be the perfect representation of The White Family dynamic and why they don’t fit into the village.

Here is where I put the general lessons I learned in my film classes to work. Some of this might sound weird, but these little hints or clues are subconscious ways of telling us more about a character. So, grab a drink, sit back and look at what the whites are and why they just don’t fit.

The Scene (Starts at the 6:54 mark and ends at the 8:17 mark): Chrissie is sitting on the couch doing her own research on this investor deal. Lachlan comes in to say that its good she is doing this because Robert is the one who put it together, not Rebecca. Meanwhile, Rebecca comes in all upset with Kath’s number. Chrissie confused at her anger tries to get to the bottom of it before Lawrence comes in and takes Rebecca’s side

Chrissie and Lachlan

Chrissie has always been the responsible daughter. She is the one with her own businesses (salons), and she has run the family business since we met her.  She is the one with the spark that has managed to fit into the village in little ways. She can be a real pill to handle, but she is the classic soap agitator.

In this scene, she is wearing a white top and black pants. She has an open stance of her body. This tells us that because of the white she is an innocent in this scene. The pants tell us that while innocent she has some darkness there or some bite to her. The openness of the body could tell us that she is open-minded and open to others coming into her space.

Which brings us to Lachlan. Lachlan was a teenager with issues. He thinks he can do anything or do anything to anyone.  He has a dangerous past of forcing himself onto others, trying to shoot his grandfather and being a general jackass. Since going to jail and getting a girlfriend, he has mellowed out working for the family.

He has a mostly dark suit with a white shirt. That could mean his dark clothes are making him appear closed off and not as angelic. However, the white shirt might show us there is something good underneath, but we may never see that. His stance is between open and closed. He is closed off but not to his mother. Just when Lawrence and Rebecca enter the room.  That could mean that Lachlan trusts his mother, but when it comes to Rebecca and Lawrence, he doesn’t.

Rebecca and Lawrence

Rebecca is the wild child of the family.  She is the youngest and never had the responsibility of having to take care of family business. Once a DJ, she has seen a lot of the world and tends to only think of herself and what the world can give to her (I’m a bit bias here…sorry it is going to be). She wants whatever her sister has. She thinks of herself as the princess and Chrissie as the goblin (remember the story Lawrence told Ronnie. I feel that was significant).

Here she is wearing a dark coverup with darker colored yellow. It’s the dark yellow they love to put her in a lot lately. The dark colors mixed in with a stripe of white might mean that she is muddled. Much like the writers and the actress playing her they aren’t sure who she is supposed to be or that might be what they are trying to tell us. She isn’t meant to be figured out yet. She is hiding a secret of sorts. Her stance appears defensive and continues to be defensive up to when Lawrence comes in.

Lawrence is someone who has been hiding all this life. He did what was expected of him. He married a woman. He started a business. He had children. He became a pillar of the community. However, he was hiding how he really felt. He didn’t like women but men. He never felt comfortable in his skin and just started feeling like he could be himself.

In this scene, he is wearing a black jacket with a light shirt underneath. His stance goes from open to defensive based on what he hears as he enters the house. What this could say is he is a lot like Lachlan. He has a lot of darkness but some light underneath. His defensive stance could be from him holding on his true love alcohol and in defense of his daughter, his only blood daughter in the room.

What The Hell Does This All Mean (God, this is weird!)

This is called mise en scene. This is a fancy way of telling a story not through the dialogue but through the visuals. The clothing, camera angles (Emmerdale does that a lot) and lighting. This gives us clues into the characters psyche and where they stand in the story.  It’s meant to be subliminal, and if you are like me, you took a film class that taught you to read the signs making movies/television easier to read (I figured out so many twists in movies because of my knowledge of how to do this…thanks film professors).

I see this innocuous scene as a definition of The Whites. We have two people on two different sides. The lines have been drawn.  Their clothing, their body language and the set this happens on tell me a lot about where The Whites stand as we go forward.

Chrissie and Lachlan are on one side. Their scenes are up against a wall. No layers there. What you see is what you get. They are not Whites by blood. They are mother and son. They are the ones that have their eyes open wide enough to notice that Robert might be up to something. Chrissie is a layered person who is capable of good and bad, but Lachlan is capable of more bad than good. This might feed into the speculation that Chrissie might be the one to take Lachlan out someday. (She is the one on his side but also the one to make sure he can’t hurt anyone again).

Lawrence and Rebecca are on the other side. They are positioned against all the open doors telling me that they have more than meets the eye. They are holding onto something that needs that much room. They are related by blood.  They both have heavy darkness on their side. They are capable of doing more bad than good. They are also the ones that Robert is messing with the most, and they are falling for it, hook line and sinker.

A small note about the Lawrence and Rebecca moment after Lawrence tells Chrissie off. The lighting. Before Lawrence and Chrissie are in shadow. Small shadows but shadows. When Rebecca goes to look at Lawrence, the light changes to give her a halo effect. Showing me that Lawrence sees Rebecca as the angel and not Chrissie. Meaning, that view Lawrence had before of Chrissie being the good one over Rebecca has changed.

The camera angles are interesting too. Chrissie and Lachlan are being filmed from a higher angle than Rebecca and Lawrence. This gives me a possible clue that Rebecca and Lawrence feel they are above Chrissie and Lachlan. Like, they don’t need them. They are better than them. They know better than them. This could play into their exits or their own destruction as a family.

This also tells me why The Whites never worked on their own. They were always tied to Robert, the more interesting character. The developed character. The legacy. Usually, this is how you get new characters introduced by tying them to a legacy character. However, without Robert, they floundered and never connected with anyone else. The Whites argue about their own petty problems and then move on. Then they do it again next week. It never ends. Robert adds that undue influence to move things along. Robert is needed, but that limits that character making the White useless to us as viewers. We don’t want to see Robert brought down, he is part of the village. He is better out there with Aaron and the Dingles. The Whites as characters just don’t work.

By the way, this could all be crap. Sometimes shows take the time to do this but for a soap opera on a time and budget crunch, it might be harder to pull off. However, I have faith in Emmerdale. I’ve seen them do great work with mise en scene before. I think they are doing it now too.

I don’t see The Whites sticking around. Hell, I don’t see a baby sticking around, but that is for another time. What do you think? Go watch the scene and tell me what you think is happening below or tweet me @AmandaJ718! Until next time, I’ll see you around in Emmerdale.

Emmerdale Live and Organized – October 18, 2017

Welcome to the pre-show. I don’t have much to say today. I guess I’ll talk about where I stand on everything. I think what is coming up is interesting.  It’s stupid. I find it funny. I also breathe a sigh of relief that I don’t have to watch Robert ‘bond’ with Rebecca. I was thoroughly ready for that to happen and yet it still hasn’t happened. Nor has Robert bonded with the idea of a baby. We are running out of time here. I mean, he could bond with the kid after its born, but I doubt that. Not the way the narrative has been going. I can’t tell where this is going and that is half exciting half nerve-wracking. I like that.

People seem to be melting down over the Lawrence stuff, and they have every right to, I just won’t be one of those people. I’ll cringe once the story gets going and mock it but I won’t meltdown over it. No one can make me meltdown over it either. The only thing I will meltdown over? GOATS. ALL THE EMMERDALE GOATS.

Oh, and I’ve been hearing reports that Darren aka EastieOaks and Andy of the DS forums are running their mouths. I need people to remember this. These two have been embellishing spoilers for a while to get views, clicks, and attention. According to them, Rebecca should have given birth this week, and Rebecca and Robert were supposed to start screwing each other. Did that happen? NOPE. So, anything that is said or implied is more than likely embellished. So, take heart in that and don’t let them drive you crazy. They aren’t worth your time or energy. Sit back. Have your bitch buddies on standby and ride out the story. It will get better soon. Also, think of other characters. Jai and Megan have a big story coming. Sam and Lydia are amazing, and Vanessa is entering a new world as we speak.

We always have December. *hums a Christmas song*

Let’s crack on, shall we? (Oh…it’s a Sharon Marshall episode…sigh)


Daz and Amelia are cute together.


Poor baby!

The panic she must be feeling as a mother. *heart breaks*

God. Just tell her! Geez.

Two freaking out parents doesn’t help her. I know its scary but hold it together for her sake.

Jai. Please. Calm down. *BUBBLE WRAPS HIM*

At least Megan isn’t freaking out. It will be ok.

Jai. JAI. She is getting tests and seeing doctors. Screw you.

The Café Crew

OH. I guess Daz got a job at the café! LOVE IT.

Daz being punished for past deeds? I mean, I feel like everyone deserves another chance. Let Daz have his chance!

Role play? I read a Robron fanfiction with that. *wink*

Oh. God. Dan and Kerry into role play. *Info I didn’t need to know*

“Good people do bad things.” That is the premise of every soap opera.

The Pub Crew

Oh god. Charity. Shut the hell up.

Also, Kath. I already love you. Don’t know why but I do.

UM….THAT’S NOT WHAT HAPPENED CHARITY. She is just on a roll right now, isn’t she? *eye roll* *My Sugden Protection Squad Shirt Comes Out* I know Charity is doing this because she hates herself so she must spread the hate to others (Robert and Vanessa). Charity is about to have her own breakdown? Something coming her way to make her repent for her mistakes this year? Maybe. Maybe not.

The pregnant ABBA REJECT! HA! I knew I loved Kath. So far: Lachlan, Robert, Chrissie and even Lawrence (earlier in the year) implied or right out said Rebecca is dumb. Is that significant? Discuss in the comments below or tweet me your answer!

HA! Kath saying for Charity to shut up. Shutting up Chrissie and the lesser White sister? Can Kath stick around? I kind of like her.

Vanessa! The fact she is being forced to do this because of Charity mocking her pisses me off. Well, good for you Pearl. *shrug*

David’s Grocery

Awww, that’s nice Frank.

“Do you like her? Charity?” “Does anyone?” – HA (I’m not a fan of Charity right now, but I know that will change)


Robert looks great. OH…hey Tim. *shrug*

Does anyone work here anymore?!?!

Ok. I’m really into scheming, hot, sharp-witted Robert. *fans myself* I have issues, and I’m enjoying that.

‘It’s Just Speculation!’

Originally posted by flawswelove

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Until next time, see you around in Emmerdale!

Emmerdale Live and Organized – October 17, 2017


Welcome to the pre-show. Today is special because I just realized that this is the same week I found Emmerdale. So, sit down children and enjoy this small story of my entrance into a crazy land that is the Emmerdale fandom.So, last October, I was bored and scrolling through Tumblr when someone I followed posted this picture:


I stared at it thinking that it was cute and then scrolled on. Then I scrolled back to it.  Scrolled on. Then went back. Looked at the tags and saw: Aaron Dingle x Robert Sugden was tagged. I clicked on it and found it was part of Emmerdale. Against my better judgment, I went and googled Emmerdale which gave me all the information I needed. I floundered around for a week or so checking out some fanfiction and gifs wondering about those two.  Finally, I sent out a message onto Tumblr asking for some help. I asked for a channel that had their story.  I got two messages and a warning.


Thinking they were being overdramatic I shrugged and went to the link and I haven’t looked back. I didn’t watch my first full-blown episode until January and that was on some shady website I’m sure gave me a virus on my old computer. Then I got some help on watching live and my backup Britbox appeared. In fact, the first episode I watched on Britbox was the Robron wedding.  A lot has happened since I jumped into this world but I’ve enjoyed my time here. I’m positive things will get better very soon. I know people are upset at current events but we have an endpoint. We know Robert and Aaron find their way back to each other. As they always will. Also, this Roberts story and I’m loving that he is getting some focus. Last year was about Robert being there for Aaron once he hit rock bottom. This year it is Aaron being there for Robert after hitting rock bottom. There is more to it but it makes my heart sing.  It has been one hell of a ride and we aren’t done yet. Never a dull moment and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

(On a random note: I think I’m more excited to see Rebecca’s face when she realizes that Robert picked Chrissie, Aaron and now Lawrence over her. He was sober for all of them too. Anyone but her makes me laugh so hard I can’t breathe. Oh…and….GOATS. Goats forever and ever. Amen.)

Let’s crack on, shall we?


With all the talk of Chas and Paddy, I guess that is why we are getting Rhona stuff.

“Can’t you all get along with your own tiny lives please?” – Then there wouldn’t be a show Vanessa! I’m just saying.

Vanessa is confused. She doesn’t need people making her more confused. I feel like all people have to do is listen. Listen to what Vanessa has to say. How she feels.

SOCK MONKEY! *This is an old obsession. I collected them for a while. They live on my tree. Long story. Pictures to come*

So, Vanessa, you might be bi. Or you need to get out there and figure out what you want. I can’t wait to see the talk Robert and Vanessa are going to have next week.

The Factory

I don’t understand the maple syrup thing either, Jai.

I think she needed to be immature to start the healing process.

The Café Crew

I’ve been watching 2009 episodes, and I love Brenda with brown hair. It looks great on her.

Dark and white. Chrissie is in white and Rebecca is in black. It’s interesting.

I usually tune out of any scenes with Rebecca, so that is all I got.

Um….Robert looks good. He always looks good. He would look better with a dirty little grease monkey on his arm.

I love how everyone in town is having a gossip session with the cops.

God Pete is still mad. I thought he would have calmed down by now.

Nicola coo-ing over Laurel and Dotty. That is adorable.

The Bartons

Dude. Watch your mouth around Tracy. She is upset over Finn too. You guys are in the same boat.

Pete is upset but also…guility? *dun duuunnn dun!*

I forgot they had to bury Emma next. Two Funerals. That has to be crazy expensive.

David’s Grocery

Lawrence looking for his best friend, booze. That is Lawrence’s true love.

Awkward. Thanks, Tracy.

Oh god. Lawrence and Rebecca are the stupidest people in the history of Home Farm. *waits for fans to argue with me*

Home Farm

Chrissie is the only one doing due diligence. Same with Lachlan. I see Lachlan is the only one who seems to know what is going on. Lachlan called Rebecca stupid too. That cracked me up.

Lachlan. On a scale of 1-5 (5 being the most serial killer), how are you feeling today? *Will never give up on this rumor!*

“Your sister won this on her own merits!” *FOOTAGE NOT FOUND*

This is getting funny now. *LAUGHS*


*Awwww…another cute baby!*

Leyla has been the other woman before. You would think she would understand forgiveness. More people getting a taste of their own medicine? Another theme.

True. That is a theme. Turning back time. Turning back bad decisions and mistakes. Can we? Can they?

Oh god! That is horrifying. The shaking stroller? God. *bubble wrap comes out*

Poor baby! *sad face*

Awwwww, they are hugging. Now…go after Pete. *evil smile*


The Scrapyard

Does anyone work here anymore? Aaron? Adam? ANYONE? Just Robert. Is Robert keeping the business going too?

This actor is proactive. Well, not really.

OH GOD. Robert needs to find better actors. *SNORTS* His beautiful face.

‘It’s Just Speculation!’

Originally posted by itsafangirlthing

As per usual: Stay off the message boards, respect each other’s opinions, breathe, reboot and eat a Snickers. If you want to talk theory or the show come on over to my twitter and Tumblr @AmandaJ718

Until next time, see you around in Emmerdale!

Emmerdale Live and Organized – October 16, 2017

Welcome to the preshow. In case anyone doesn’t know where I stand on the newly leaked Soap life spoilers.


I love Robert Jacob Sugden. That is all. Also, GOATS!

Anyway, lets crack on shall we?

The Pub Crew

Oh. Hey. Its Vanessa and Charity. *Jury is still out for me on them*

Paddy keeps seeing things. That kind of cracks me up.

Barton Brothers stick together. Considering they are all they have left.

This Charity/Paddy conversation is all types of funny and wrong.

Vanessa jumping to look through the window cracked me up. It’s something I’d do. *laughs into my bubble wrap*

Vanessa and Daz? Ok then? This won’t go well at all.


Oh. Is Charity jealous? OH GOD THIS IS THE DATE FROM HELL!

I think Robert is excited no one is yelling at him.

Oh. So not cool to out someone Charity. NOT COOL. *judging look*

Robert knowing. He seemed to feel bad for Vanessa which is nice. He didn’t find it funny that Charity did that to her at all.

Oh good. More plot. PLOT PLOT PLOT.

The White Family aka Dead Weight Family

Oh good. Plot devices have told us where things are with them. Good to know. *goes back to sleep*

Lydia is a million times better than all the Whites. A MILLION TIMES BETTER.

Rebecca. You are stupid and have no business sense. You ran the business into the ground without Robert helping. I mean, come on. You are so stupid I can’t breathe. Let Chrissie look at it, you idiot. OH…smile about Lydia looking so sad again…I will punch you in the face.


Oh hey guys. Welcome back. I lost track of your plot.

Awwww…Daz fits right in! That’s was cute!

Awwww, the kid giving her change to him was adorable too.

The Café Crew

THE SAM AND LYDIA! My OTP! *heart eyes*

Awwwww. They are going to live together. Adorable.

Oh. Lydia! *BIG HUG*


Leyla is a level of petty I’ve seen before…in me. *I feel you, Leyla. I feel you.*

The Factory

Priya and Leyla. I want them to be friends again. Pete isn’t worth the fighting girls.

I love Leyla’s big jacket. *baby on board* So cute. *giggles like an idiot*

Davids Grocery

Shut up, Frank.

Vanessa does look good. I want that jacket! I love leather jackets. Random fact about me. Enjoy.

“David doesn’t really like me.” – WHY? I haven’t heard about this. Please explain to Amanda who is slow!



“I’m going to die a lonely old spinster!” – Leyla (ME TOO! HIGH FIVE)

Maple Syrup? What? That was just dumb.

‘It’s Just Speculation!’

(Since we are in a holding pattern: Robert schemes, Whites Stupid, Robert Schemes, Whites Stupid…I’m going to post my favorite Robron Kisses and Christmas Scenes here! Enjoy!)

Originally posted by lizzzzoo

As per usual: Stay off the message boards, respect each other’s opinions, breathe, reboot and eat a Snickers. If you want to talk theory or the show come on over to my twitter and Tumblr @AmandaJ718

Until next time, see you around in Emmerdale!

Emmerdale Live and Organized – October 13, 2017

Welcome to Friday’s pre-show.  GOATS. Oh. Also, here is my ‘Who Pushed Emma?’ Theory.

Gabby found the suicide letter in the church and kept it for herself. Meanwhile, Laurel came home because Gabby called her to do so and came across Emma. They argue, and Laurel smacks her across the face because well, Laurel has done this before with Emma and there was major build up. Emma moves on to the bridge where she has her talk with her ghost family.  Ross, who was looking for her, finds her and Emma turns. Ross, as angry as he is, tries to talk her down off the bridge ledge. She goes to jump down, and she slips and falls down. That or she tells Ross no and lets herself fall backward. Ross freaks because he has so much to lose. He could lose Moses, Pete, and Debbie. So, he takes Emma’s stuff and runs with it.

That is my theory. Gabby/Laurel/Ross. Accidental Fall. Let’s see if it withstands today’s episode.

Let’s crack on shall we?

The Pub Crew

Vanessa looks…confused. OH LOOK. THEY GET A MORNING AFTER SCENE.

HA. Super Marlon.

OH. YAY a Friday the 13th Reference. Good for you show. GOOD FOR YOU. *NERDGASM*

Paddy is a Friday the 13th Fan. *Headcanon*

Vanessa doesn’t want to be found out by anyone. Oh…hey Paddy!

Baby’s first pub visit.

“Way better snog than your dad!” – Charity (HA!)

The Bartons

Oh yay. The police again. *eye roll*

Thanks for the overview Ross! I know it’s for the slow in the head general audience.

Yes, Pete. Ask Ross the important question so I can validate my theory. *HA*

OH HEY! HEEEEYYY! That part of my theory might be right!

OH HEY! We are just laying it all out there. I’m enjoying the Robert mention (hey my lovely lovely son. I miss you!)

The Bubblegum Crew

Fred. Gerald. How about…Isaac? *wink*

I guess Gerry and Liv are best friends now? Ok. I’m cool with that. Liv needs more friends since Gabby sucks right now.

Diane and Liv working together? I was hoping Liv could hang out with the Sugden side of the family.

They are getting Gerry attached to other people in the village. Gerry is sticking around?

Take a Vow Crew

Leyla being bitter is awesome (I love it)

Megan and Frank…are they a thing again? I lost track of their whole story. Are they back together again? I’m lost here. Please help me out here.



I missed her. *heart eyes*

“It was just a fumble.”

The Factory

Oh good. The orders will be ok.

“Everyone makes mistakes” – Jai (HA HA HA HA)



They just kissed. Like I thought.


Moira is not attaching to that kid. Letting it cry. *sad face*

That baby is so cute! Curled up against Faith like that. *my ovaries just burst*

Moira. Watch what you say. Please. Watch what you say.

“…The only thing she is guilty of is being a good mother.” (Baby Dingle confirms) (AWWW)

‘It’s Just Speculation!’

Originally posted by mroutsiderboy

(Just some Friday the 13th Humor)

As per usual: Stay off the message boards, respect each other’s opinions, breathe, reboot and eat a Snickers. If you want to talk theory or the show come on over to my twitter and Tumblr @AmandaJ718

Until next time, see you around in Emmerdale!

Emmerdale Live and Organized – October 12, 2017

This is going to be an emotional, long, crazy episode. So, the pre-show will be short.


Anyway…lets crack on, shall we?

The Bartons

Sure. I always let my dead relatives hang out in my house before the funeral. I’ll tread cautiously here because of different customs.


Oh, Ross. Honey. *Tissues and Bubble Wrap for him!*

No middle name? Do people no do middle names anymore?

Tracy and Leyla. I get it. I had trouble sitting in front of my grandfather’s casket at his wake. It was…too much. No shame in not doing it. It’s just…it’s rough.

Tracy is getting me teary-eyed. *WRAPS MY HEART IN BUBBLE WRAP*


Ha. The dialogue that we heard when they jerk broke onto the set and started filming random stuff.

Yeah. Finn always looked for the best in people except for Aaron because he had no problem sending him down the river. (I’m still bitter about that guys. I don’t care if he is dead. He wasn’t a saint. Yet…we all do this don’t we? Don’t speak ill of the dead? Hmm, interesting practice…no? Thoughts on this?)



The Wishing Well

Belle is the voice of reason.

Zak. Your old values are killing me here. Listen to the girl. Nothing happened. Why? Liv is…well…you will all find out.

Sam looks freaked out. Oh no. Like I thought. Too soon.

I think I have Belles shirt.

SAM. That’s not what happened! Sigh. Whatever.

Here we go. It’s all coming together now. *glad to not hold in that spoiler anymore*

OH LOOK. Real parents. Look at that Liv.

David’s Grocery

I don’t think Pete had time to fully process the baby. Just saying.

Tracy! *Passes her a tissue*

“Two pages of smut!” – Tracy (AWWWWWWW! Cute)

The Café Crew

Nicola just cracked me up. “Weird but happy.”

Sam and Lydia. They are rushing. This won’t end well. Will it?

Oh god. They are going to get the wrong idea! *dun dun duuuunnn*

Moira’s Farm

Moira is still not bonding. I don’t think so. God, that is a big baby. Cute as hell.

Adam is as lovely as ever. It’s just your brother Adam. Jackass.

Adam making it about him. Thanks. *I’m not in a good place with the character right now. So, get used to it*

God. Everyone is guilty.  *DUN DUN DUUUUNNN*

The Pub Crew

Charity and Vanessa. That’s all I keep thinking about.

It’s all superheroes! PERFECT. *A happy tear comes out*

Diane is more involved in this storyline than her own stepsons. Thanks show.

Well. Leyla isn’t into burying the hatchet on this one Pryia. Eek. Moving on.

Everyone is dressed up. Cute.

Victoria is an asshole. Film at 11.

“Stranger things have happened.” – Faith (Yes. I agree.)

A nice shot of Jack Sugden.  Was that an accident?

Gabby feels too obvious. No?

Oh god. Faith. EEEEK.

Well, Cain. Come on. It’s obvious that you are the obvious choice here. Also, too obvious.

Some insight into Chas and Cain’s childhood.

Wow. Victoria. Your mind went right to Adam is guilty! Maybe you aren’t over things.  Just saying.

Oh god. Vanessa is so drunk. STOP HER.

“Beaky Box” – *SNORTS*

Vanessa and Charity. Yup. That’s…a thing. *Shrug*

‘Who Pushed Emma?’ Mystery

A hard slap? Hmmmmm. That is new information we didn’t know about.

Ok, technically, TECHNICALLY, this comes from Justine (@BeautifulHusbands), but we think Pryia, Nicola or Laurel is who pushed Emma. Watch this space for more info.

Cain doesn’t know, but I think he thinks its Moira. Just by his expression. I don’t know.

Adam is still the village idiot. His stupid ass self will get himself or someone else in trouble. I can feel it.

I’m shocked no one has blamed Robert yet. Everyone does. OH! Aaron is out of town that is why that hasn’t happened yet. *History people. Wink* lol


The Funeral

THEY WOULD NOT INTERRUPT A FUNERAL! SERIOUSLY!?! WTF?!?! I’ve been to a few funerals where the police….I won’t finish that statement right now. *looks away*

SERIOUSLY. THIS IS FUCKED UP. Let them bury Finn in peace!

Nicola is the Emmerdale fandom while we wait for the funeral to start. HA.

The Lachlan and Finn ship LIVES! FOREVER AND EVER. AMEN. (I just quoted a freaking country song. I’m sorry)

How nice! The Whites are sitting behind The Bartons. Hmmm. Very interesting.

Nice Chrissie. *eye roll* Only Nicola can make jokes. Not you. Shut up.

Why did the show zoom in on Chrissie when Pete asked: “what mother kills her child?” *OHHHHHH OOOOOOOHHHH*

Then it zoomed in on Lachlan about shooting something…I lost track of Pete’s breakdown but OH MY GOD. LET SERIAL KILLER LACHLAN RISE!


Adam showed up after all. Later. Still, works.

The Dingles Van of Doom


He is in the van. Gerry is in the van.

No, he isn’t Zak. You are an idiot.

Pigs don’t…I can’t. This is so dumb on so many levels.

HA! POINT ONE FOR GERRY! Isn’t everyone on this show from a farm except for the dead weight family and Tom?

Ok. Please. Make this stop. This is so stupid.

Oh god. Sanity showed up.

‘It’s Just Speculation!’

As per usual: Stay off the message boards, respect each other’s opinions, breathe, reboot and eat a Snickers. If you want to talk theory or the show come on over to my twitter and Tumblr @AmandaJ718

Until next time, see you around in Emmerdale!